18F, parents disowned me, my only friend betrayed me.. what do i even do now?

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i grew up in one of those super strict, very religious households where everything was “sinful”. no makeup, no sleepovers, no music outside of church, it was pretty crazy.

when i turned 18, i finally left for college. i thought my parents would support me since i was trying to do something with my life but instead they hated the idea since they said it’s a “degenerate environment”. they completely cut me off for going. no calls, no support financially or generally.

i made a confession post about how i’ve been trying to survive on my own, the one friend i trusted (she knew the story) exposed me to my parents. next thing i know my dad called me and was yelling at me for “shaming the family”. long story short, i was just keeping guy’s company for some quick cash, ONLY dates though, nothing more.

i called my friend after and completely lost it. i cut her off & now i have no one. i’m just alone trying to balance everything in my life.

i don’t want to “fix” things with them, i know where we all stand now. but i don’t want to just be alone. how do i even start to build a new life from scratch? i feel like i can’t trust anyone or open up anymore.

if you were in my shoes how would you rebuild your life?

Comments

  1. livinthedreams Avatar

    That is unfortunate what you are going through. You lost a good friend and your family is unsupportive. Luckily you are in college, surrounded by like minded people around your age. Talk to people on campus, in class, join a club or 2 or 3. I joined a new club every year of college and made many new friends in each. You are at a pivotal point in your life. It’s time to leave the past behind and start living your own life. You are now free.