my feelings to him have deteriorated in a bad way because I feel like it’s my fault that no one initiated a friendship with him. And every time he talks about his past, I can see that his life was much happier and fuller before I entered it. i dont know, everytime i bring this up to him it dosent reassures me that much. and now since we’re no longer classmates anymore and now incoming 1st year, it drives me crazy to think he can settle fast than i could, or to prove that pol around him will talk only if im not there. i always felt alone because of this. i really dont know what to do.
But before that, The reason why i think that im the problem because during our rehearsal time at school (high school days) for theater play, me and him got in a different groups, and everytime its the time to practice for play, i can see that ppl only talks to him when im not around, and when I stepped onto the scene, ppl just vanished and dosent like talking to me. this thing affects me alot and i really dont know whats wrong with me. should i call it quits because it’s been affecting me alot?
TL;DR: My boyfriend dosent have friends and i feel like its my fault because ppl only talks to him when im not around. And no one talks to me even tho i didnt do anything wrong. It really affects me alot.