Hey.
Im having big problem in my mind.
Im with my fiancee for 9 years. We basically started our adulthood life together, went through university, first jobs, apartament etc. Basically my twenties is her.
When we started both of us were virgins, after 2 years of our relationship we had sex couple of times but she was in huge pain and since then she was going to various doctors without any real solution so far.
We had intimacy orally and with kisses, cuddles. And i love her so much that i was able to overcome lack of sex thinking she will get better eventually. But last year our intimacy gotten a lot worse, she seems burden a lot with her problem, and lack of sex + long times without her willignes to do something is getting into my head. Im starting to consider breaking up but at the same time i would feel big remorse, because i would left her becaue of her health problem and i know it would devastate her. Just had to release it from my head to some people because i dont have any1 to talk about it, as all our friends believes we are perfect couple and i cannot trust any1 on keeping secret on that…
Tldr
9 years relationship, gf cant have sex because of her health for past 6-7 years, im considering ending it but its super hard decision mentally