35m and 32f, almost 4 years together with 5 month separation.

TL;DR: love my gf, always curious about what else is out there. Starting to get older and feel like I’m running out of time. Time to make decisions.

We are in a good place right now but I have always had in the back of my mind a feeling there is something else out there for me. I know she is ready for the next phase and is more excited than I am. She’s a great women and very good to me and I know it’d be smart to commit but I’ve always felt something missing to where I’m mostly in but not all in. Some days I think I’m ready and others I wonder if it’s fully for me. I’ve never really truly dated around and always in a long term relationship.

I am not sure if this is a normal feeling people feel as they are running out of time or if it’s something that will always be there. I just got back from Europe and had a few 25 year olds hit on me and it was exciting. I wouldn’t throw what I have away for that but it made me wonder why I’m not excited about where I’m at right now.

Im not sure if a lot of men feel this way or if it will ever go away. I feel I’m in my prime, looks wise, money wise and know who I am. I’m financially well off and have my own business. I always have been in a relationship. But at 35 it feels like I’m out of time. I kind of want to put myself out there but I do love her and couldn’t risk losing her. I keep wondering, do I continue to travel in search of finding lightening in a bottle or go all in with my gf and see what it can be?