I have been with my boyfriend, we will call him Jim for now on, for about 5 years now. The relationship started out cute and wholesome. But as time passed and I started having more physical issues happen caused by a nervous system disorder, I started to gain more weight then I would like to admit. We have not been intimate or had any real romantic moments in a very long time now. This year alone has been the hardest for me with it starting with him forgetting my birthday… not celebrating valentines or our anniversary as well. I have been working on my self image issues this year and trying to find clothes that make me feel good. I got some cute crop tops and showed them to Jim, he wasnt interested. So i asked him if he was attracted to me his response was no. The memory could be fuzzy and he could of been talking about the crop tops but it still really hurt cause i was feeling good. He says he loves me but I know he isn’t attracted to me now, which with the lack of romance and imtomaticy i should of realized sooner. I feel so lost and broken now when im home its super loney feeling this way and not being able to communicate any of it cause the fee times i have tried he mentions that the nonexistent intimacy is because of my nervous disorder… cause it sometimes hurts when I’m touched and he doesn’t know how to be gentle.. The issue now is what do I do? I live with him and don’t have anywhere to go right now.. I don’t know how to approach him about any of this at the moment and just really need some advice.
TL;DR Longterm boyfriend feels more like a situationship and isn’t attracted to me despite saying he loves me.