I just don’t want to be here. I am so tired of struggling, I am so tired of feeling this way, and nothing ever gets better.
I won’t hurt myself because of my cat, she wouldn’t survive without me, but I just don’t want to do this anymore. I hate myself and I hate my life and I’m trying to turn things around but nothing is happening and now I’ve dealt with two losses within 5 weeks and I just feel dead inside.
I can’t and won’t do anything to hurt myself but I can’t stand existing like this anymore. I try to do things to be motivated and activate all the happy hormones or chemicals but its never enough and as soon as it pauses I feel like this again.
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98% of us don’t want to be here anymore. Consider that, and take it one day at a time, brother.
In my honest opinion, I feel like you are reaching out for help. You are frustrated and feel like you’re overwhelmed with dealing with the things in your life that have caused you to feel this way. What you really want is to be happy but the things in your life that you need to fix to be happy are just a lot to think of. You know you have a lot on your plate and you don’t know where to start.. take baby steps. It doesn’t matter how small they are just working on going back into the right direction and you will get back on track. One day you will be back where you want to be in life and see that it wasn’t as bad as you thought it was at the time. Always remember, this too shall pass. Keep moving forward.
Law of correspondence changed my life. I used to hate everything around me and thought everything was against me. Damn near took myself out fr. Then I realized nothing was getting better because my internal state was so fucked up. Ive done a lot of inner work this last year and now I’m more excited than ever about the future. Theres opportunities that have came up for me that I never would have had a year ago