So me and my Best Friend have been friends for almost a year now. We both met in college and are about to do our second year together.
To put it bluntly, I’ve fallen in love with them. They are simply marriage material, and while I am mostly OK with things being platonic, I do have the issue of minor jealousy. I’ve noticed my feelings diminish a fair bit if they are dating someone. But when they are single I kinda can’t stop thinking how great they are.
Me and them spend a lot of time together, they got me into a lot of New things I don’t think I ever would have done, like going on extreme roller coasters and rides, musicals, etc.
Right now I’m not quite sure of things just yet, I actually asked them out in February and they declined, but we’ve only gotten closer since then.
I recently got a little bit of a sinking feeling when they said they considered giving either of the two cooks at the McDonald’s they work at a shot if the two would stop bickering with each other. And this is part of the reason why I am making this. I honestly doubt they’ll date either of them, cause it’s McDonald’s, the cooks are designed to argue and fight at this point. Idk I just got a numb feeling…
As I am making this, I am actually starting to feel a bit better while typing.
I’m having lunch with them in a few days, doubt I’ll ask any questions or anything, I doubt I’ll ask them out ever, and will likely end up waiting for them if they even think about asking me out…
So yeah, that’s my biggest mental health issue right now. But they make me super happy in comparison to how I once was…
(TLDR: M20, fallen in love with year long best friend NB19, and am struggling to mentally a bit cause I don’t wanna scare them off or damage anything.)