Genuinely, is it my fault people tend to leave me behind ?

Ok, so the thing I wanna clarify first:

I (M20) am well aware that due to me being lonely I tend to be very active, trying to push the convo forward, which might come across as overburdening. I understand that.

If I get to know a person that i find humorous or just nice to be around (especially online) I am 99% the first one to message, trying to do something together, inviting to play or ask about their day, etc….

This goes on for round about 2 weeks, always me having to go first. I started a little experiment a while back, where I just stopped messaging people, to try and see if they would just ghost or take initiative.

And almost all of whom I tried this on just left me, never writing again.

I had a similar situation with an irl friend of mine, who never had time for me except if she had a fight with her bf, or some other bs happened and she wanted to talk. Ended that relationship after a lot of time thinking and never regretted it.

But all that said, I’m starting to think its generally me being unlikable or overburdening, because SOMETHING has to be wrong. And I’m ngl when I say that fucks me mentally pretty hard.

Any opinions or advices ? I’m genuinely kinda lost rn

TLDR: people tend to stop messaging me if i dont initiate and idk if its my fault