I’m a lesbian stuck in a crazy religious country & family
Not even in a relationship, but damn, I’m so fucking sad I’m crying rn. I loved, sorry i mean i’m obsessed with this girl at my uni for 4 f*king years. Saw her twice today and it just wrecked me. I want her so bad.
My uni’s huge as f, but I always and everyday keep looking for her. I don’t even know why. I just need to see her.
I feel so fucking alone. Nobody would pick my side here — parents, siblings, friends — all so religious it’s suffocating. If they even got a whiff I’m a lesbian, they wouldn’t just hate me, they’d probably try to exorcise me or some shit.
Trust me, I don’t want to be alone in this damn world for being who I am. I’m not tough enough to lose everyone and start over.
I just want to feel seen. I’m not planning to come out or something, but fuck, I just want someone to recognize me for who I really am.
So yeah, I’m here, invisible and stuck in this religious hellhole where being me would break everything. Just needed to say it somewhere I won’t get judged for who I love or where I come from.