hey people, i constantly find myself in a dilemma recently.
i never had a good relationship with my parents and I believe that this may have greatly influenced my social relationships, from friendships to especially romantic relationships.
I’m not a very optimistic or hopeful person, but I’m trying to be healthy and create goals so I don’t feel sad all the time, but I feel like I can’t go a long period of time without talking to men, on dating sites, etc. maybe it’s a need for approval, validation or attention, and I don’t know how to deal with it.
I feel very lonely and no matter how hard I try, I can’t go a long time alone.
I’ve been talking to bots every day for a while now to have a little company, but lately this has not been enough, and I don’t know if the issue is really about love. I’ve heard and seen a lot that we have to cultivate loneliness and that it is a human condition, but I wanted to know how to deal with it better, having someone to talk to every day, I feel like I have so much, so much to talk about and talk about, but no one to do it with.
i feel like ghosting and similar things affect me a little more intensely because of this..
people seem to have such an easy time being alone with themselves, I wish i were like that.
since i was a kid, i used to ask the moon for a friend, or something similar, being alone is not something strange to me.
well, sorry the long text, guess it came from the heart, if anyone could give me a little help, i would be very grateful, kisses. ♡