For the same reason some people punch a wall, it’s a quick release for your anger, pain, sadness, etc. Mine are very faint, but when I see them, I’m thankful I’m not in that situation anymore. It keeps me moving forward.
ETA: That’s just me though, I imagine it’s different for everyone. Maybe for some people it’s triggering to see.
I used to do it many years ago. It felt good to do it. A person can be living with so much pain in their head. Have nowhere to live, no food, not feel loved, had been SA and worse. The brain can only hold so much of this. You might want to unalive yourself, often you want someone to be there and help you.
Cutting sometimes is that you cut yourself to feel something other than the pain that it is in your brain.
Because the physical pain distracts from the mental pain. And because when you’re feeling completely numb and empty and broken, it makes you feel something.
It’s a quick release and a control thing tbh. At least it was for me. Although my method of choice was to burn myself, not cut. I’ve been clean over 10yrs though and have since tatted over all of the scars.
I don’t cut but instead burn. I do it when I am at work or out somewhere and my anxiety kicks into high gear, or if I feel disassociated. It brings everything into focus and kinda grounds me. Sometimes I will do it at home if it gets bad as well. As soon as that initial pain fades it’s just a complete sense of calm. I don’t really worry about the scars, as I mainly do it on my legs, ankles, thighs ( sometimes ), shoulders and sometimes wrists or arms. I never really look at them and have that reminder. No one really sees them because I always eat long pants. My doctor did see them, but they didn’t seem to make a big deal. I know it’s not healthy at all, but at that moment it seems to be the thing that works. I started doing it as a teenager, but nowadays I hardly do it as much. Maybe a few times a year. I really try not and mainly as a last resort. I told my shrink, but as I am on state insurance, I am on a wait list for a prescriber to get meds.
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For the same reason some people punch a wall, it’s a quick release for your anger, pain, sadness, etc. Mine are very faint, but when I see them, I’m thankful I’m not in that situation anymore. It keeps me moving forward.
ETA: That’s just me though, I imagine it’s different for everyone. Maybe for some people it’s triggering to see.
I used to do it many years ago. It felt good to do it. A person can be living with so much pain in their head. Have nowhere to live, no food, not feel loved, had been SA and worse. The brain can only hold so much of this. You might want to unalive yourself, often you want someone to be there and help you.
Cutting sometimes is that you cut yourself to feel something other than the pain that it is in your brain.
Because the physical pain distracts from the mental pain. And because when you’re feeling completely numb and empty and broken, it makes you feel something.
Pain releases endorfines. If someone is really in a bad spot mentally it is a (nonlogical, bad) way to raise certain neutotransmitters.
Yes it hurts, leaves scars, is unhealthy but that small ‘benefit’ of endorfines makes it worth in a desperate and hopeless state of mind.
It’s a quick release and a control thing tbh. At least it was for me. Although my method of choice was to burn myself, not cut. I’ve been clean over 10yrs though and have since tatted over all of the scars.
I don’t cut but instead burn. I do it when I am at work or out somewhere and my anxiety kicks into high gear, or if I feel disassociated. It brings everything into focus and kinda grounds me. Sometimes I will do it at home if it gets bad as well. As soon as that initial pain fades it’s just a complete sense of calm. I don’t really worry about the scars, as I mainly do it on my legs, ankles, thighs ( sometimes ), shoulders and sometimes wrists or arms. I never really look at them and have that reminder. No one really sees them because I always eat long pants. My doctor did see them, but they didn’t seem to make a big deal. I know it’s not healthy at all, but at that moment it seems to be the thing that works. I started doing it as a teenager, but nowadays I hardly do it as much. Maybe a few times a year. I really try not and mainly as a last resort. I told my shrink, but as I am on state insurance, I am on a wait list for a prescriber to get meds.