I was telling my coworker (she asked about it, otherwise I won’t talk about weight) about how my weight loss journey was going. I said I’ve hit a slump and I’m at 16st 12lbs and worried that I’m going to go over 17st if I don’t get my shit together – I’ve never been this high before.
She then proceeded to rub her stomach and call herself fat. She said “fat is so disgusting”.
I know it’s just her mindset and clearly she’s struggling with her body image… but I don’t think she realises how much that makes me feel like shit as someone who is visibly bigger than her.
She’s definitely not fat. She eats healthily & frequently in front of us, and goes to the gym.
But when I was younger, my friendship group used to shout at me for calling myself fat after they all called themselves fat, when I literally was. I’ve been overweight for nearly all of my life. So my friends would argue with me because I thought I was. They were all thinner than me.
It‘s just hard for me to hear that when I’m trying to lose weight and my goal being a healthy weight for myself, but hearing someone at that similar weight saying that that’s “fat” and “fat is disgusting” indirectly just makes me sad. It feels like I’ll never be able to feel good about myself.