I am the biggest idiot ever. I messed up pretty bad.

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So about a year ago, me and my gf were planning on taking the prerequisite for nursing together so we could hopefully get into nursing together. We were doing it online. Well I was pretty far ahead of her, she never really worked on it, I always had to beg her to do it with me and she still never really would. Well I guess I lost my motivation, and I wanted to wait for her because our plan was to do it together.

Fast forward to now, she got into another pre requisite for nursing that is in person, so she will be able get into nursing next year, which was our plan, and don’t get me wrong, I am happy for her, and excited for her and proud of her.

But now my issue is, I did not think she would “leave me behind” like this. Like obviously I know she didn’t really leave me behind, but I was just so stupid and I can’t get over it. I waited for her so we could do it together. And now she’s doing a whole other one alone, and I’m stuck. I did not see this coming, I would not have done that, considering we had a plan together.

Now my stupidity has left me with less than 2 months to complete human anatomy and physiology. I don’t know what to even do. I just keep crying at how dumb I was. I don’t even know how I could be that dumb. I should have seen it coming. Just because I’m not the type of person to “leave someone behind” like that, obviously doesn’t mean other people wouldn’t. And I should have known she would. It’s the type of person she is. I’ve known her over 10 years now and I was just so god damn stupid and foolish.

I wish I could reverse time. I dug my whole and now I have to lie in it. I just want out.

Comments

  1. 1horseshy Avatar

    Run your own race, babe.

  2. honestlyth0 Avatar

    Anatomy is easy homie, the funny bone is connected to the wish bone. Thats about it. You got this gl

  3. TapiocaShine Avatar

    Hey… you’re not stupid, you were just trusting and hoping to share a journey with someone you care about. Plans change, people grow, and sometimes that leaves us scrambling, but it doesn’t erase your effort or your worth. You still have time to get through this, one step at a time, and you can do it. Be kind to yourself.

  4. boardgamejoe Avatar

    A&P is just memorization. Also it’s “hole” not “whole” English I and II are most likely prereqs as well. You got this!

  5. SashimiSqueaks Avatar

    Is it possible you both have different learning styles? I prefer being in a building attending classes. I get too distracted at home on my laptop. I need a teacher to keep me focused and on task. I’m also more of a hands on person, i like labs better than classes. Maybe online learning wasn’t working for her

  6. ChillllVibesss Avatar

    You’re not stupid, you just cared. Focus on your own path now you’ve still got this

  7. Comprehensive_Elk433 Avatar

    Use all kind of apps that help with memorizing and understanding and try to learn to put yourself first once in a while it is your carrer path only yours

  8. X-Torn-Reviver-X Avatar

    And this is the long start to an inevitable break up.

  9. Sad_Win_4105 Avatar

    Even if you entered the same school at the same time, there is no guarantee you’d be assigned to the same classes or clinicals.

    What’s done is done. Now its time for you to navigate your own course.

  10. DameNeumatic Avatar

    Do you know each other or just say hi in passing?

  11. aboelzooz_2007 Avatar

    I understand your frustration, yes you made a mistake but its because you cared about her and that shows what a good person you are. My best advice is to talk to her about it and how much it bothered you instead of building resentment to her, and in the end crying overit isnt gonna do you any good. Just get over it, accept that it happened and get to work!

  12. SweetCerus Avatar

    Get off of reddit and get your ass in gear, do what you can, try your best, and see how it works out. What else can you do?

  13. Recent_Newspaper6262 Avatar

    Dude, make your plan and go forward on your own timeline. You’ll both be nurses. Focus on the big picture. You’ll both be nurses. Who cares if one of you finishes six months before the other? For your own benefit, I want you to do a tiny bit of googling and reading about codependency. Your post brought that issue to mind for me. You’re fine, bruh, you got this. All is well. Nothing is on fire.

  14. Connect-Wrongdoer699 Avatar

    You can’t go back in time. Consider this a lesson learned and keep moving forward. If this is something you truly still want, stay focused and get it done. You can do this. Stop wasting energy on something you can not change at this point.

  15. LilWigglett Avatar

    that’s normal buddy. Mind your own race 🙂

  16. Kid_comet86 Avatar

    Its not leaving others behind when it comes to your education and future. Neither of you should turn down opportunities to better yourself at this point. You were able to get ahead before if you dig back in and focus on your own education Im sure you can catch back up. 

  17. okay__andd Avatar

    Comparison is the thief of joy. And also, don’t let 1 semester of regret turn into years. Just keep going, fuck it

  18. JadedPrincesss Avatar

    Stop using the “waiting for my girlfriend” phrase as an excuse not to pursue a career in nursing. Do it now or you’ll regret it later. Nursing is one of the best jobs you can have; plenty of jobs, plenty of overtime and also, “healthcare never sleeps.”

  19. Rare_Win1662 Avatar

    I know it seems daunting but it’s possible! I got accepted into a nursing program where all the classes are only 8 weeks, it feels impossible but somehow we all still get it done. Don’t give up!

  20. kibblet Avatar

    Yeah this whole plan was stupid. Reconsider nursing. You would be awful at it. When do you take a writing class? You seem so far behind.

  21. virginia-gentleman28 Avatar

    This is YOUR life. Never let anyone dictate what you do with it!! Now go get em!!

  22. CitronBeneficial2421 Avatar

    This is so confusing. Isn’t the point of supporting one another through a course to do just that? The point of doing it together is not to make a promise that if one person falters, you both stop/quit/fail.

    You’re literally doing it wrong lol

  23. Efficient-Damage-449 Avatar

    It is like working out. You tell your friend “I am working out at 7; please join me.” And you work out at 7. You don’t ever not workout if they don’t show up.

    The only yardstick you can measure your life by is your own.

  24. WildDolliee Avatar

    You’ve got this
    Make sure you don’t give up

  25. WildDolliee Avatar

    You’ve got this
    Make sure you don’t give up
    Nd try and prioritize yourself a bit more from now on

  26. Drblizzle Avatar

    Pull yourself together! Non of this is her fault.

  27. chumleymom Avatar

    Do your own thing. Get going and quit whining. Make a plan today.

  28. NoAcanthisitta3058 Avatar

    I took, Biology, Math, chemistry and English; requirements for nursing. Did it in four months plus worked full time. I was 50! I’m sure you got this!

  29. Ok-Paramedic-506 Avatar

    Join med school and show her who’s the boss

  30. drak0ni Avatar

    She didn’t leave you behind, she went at her own pace. You waited because you assumed she wouldn’t finish, but she did. You failed to keep pace with her, which was your goal

  31. Delicious-Pop-7019 Avatar

    So what’s the worst case here? She becomes a nurse a year before you? It doesn’t seem like a big deal

  32. OkCricket6475 Avatar

    Those who have never made a bad choice may they cast the first stone

  33. OkCricket6475 Avatar

    I am not here to judge for I too will be judged

  34. aintnothang90 Avatar

    Doing things together does not mean you will meet goals at the same time. Focus in on your work and you’ll get there. In order to build a future together you guys need to do the work to be able to do these things. Think about twins meeting milestones not everyone is going to walk and talk at the same time the others climbing walls. You just need to move past whatever is keeping you stuck

  35. awineredrose Avatar

    Does she exhibit manipulative tendencies? Cuz its kinda crazy youre blaming *yourself* over this when she violated something you both clearly communicated with each other about.

  36. No_Duty9554 Avatar

    I don’t think you should be upset at her for not being ready. As most people mention in this comment- you should “run your own race”…and that goes for you and your girlfriend. It is soo important to remember that while being in a relationship and having “couple goals”, it is also key to not forget about your own goals. I understand that a lot of people want to achieve milestones together, but I also think that if you wait on your significant other to achieve something and try to compare yourself to your significant other (relating to achieving goals), you will just break yourself. Yes- it is obviously important to realize that while one is just running around, aiming and achieving one goal after the other (professionally and/or personally) and the other one is just sitting at home not having any type of aspiration in life, then that is one thing and something that is irritating and just simply doesn’t work. Still, you don’t have to be “siamese twins” and complete everything “conjoined”. Finish your classes that you still have to complete in a pace where you understand the basics of anatomy and physiology, and god knows…maybe in the next ten years you end up being “nurse of the year”, while your girlfriend is just doing her everyday “9 to5 “ job. No shade towards your girlfriend but my point again is…everything happens for a reason- chill out and focus on your OWN goals that are important TO YOU.

  37. eyeballsdeep87 Avatar

    I know the feeling, I’ve made so many mistakes along my educational journey but I’ve kept moving forward, and now they are distant memories. I got where I needed to be.

  38. plutovibe Avatar

    You won’t handle Nursing if you can’t handle THIS. RN and Midwife 50 years. Trust me.

  39. cyndasaurus_rex Avatar

    Now she will be able to give you the intel on clinicals and classes, that’s a great resource!