Give me something. Please don’t tell it’s gonna pass because it doesn’t. I was 15, and I am 25 now. It’s been 10 years.
Give me something that will make it numb just to pass the day. Just to go to work and come back. It’s becoming so difficult to even function in this society.
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Reddit can’t help you get past something that you might not be ready to get over. Go see a therapist.
Psychedelics helped me. Research first tho
It helps keeping your mind active and healthy. And you’e distressed, it eases the pain too. Doesn’t matter if you wanna bawl your eyes out in 6mph or wanna spar it out.
It sounds funny. But sometimes, if you would explore a bit, this will get you going for no reason and actually idk why. This got me out of that kind of pain too. Also, you will meet new people in this scene that will even treat you as one of theirs, regardless of your differences.
Try Kublai Khan tho, or Sunami.
Or consult a psychologist or a counselor. Anyone who is capable and appropriate for this situation.
At least you seem to have a job .
I am from third world country. Right now in different continent, no relatives,no support, useless degree( agency scammed me into completely different course that i didn’t choose) my country & people are corrupted , no job, got scammed after trying to find job, didn’t even get cleaning job even through referral, no hope , can’t see my future, got in agreement with landlord trying to stand up for myself, can’t buy basic needs. Each and every time i try and try, i get pushed even lower. I am losing my will to live. I cannot even go back home, there is civil war going on.
Wouldn’t wanna “ numb “ it. But try downloading ChatGPT. Sometimes when I need some motivation I go there and it really helps
You need to process it or the pain stays, or gets even worse. You have already tried to numb it and saw the results, cry, scream, get drunk if you can do it safely, run, write, help others.
Create something, you can bake, build something, paint, just do something you can pour your feelings and all the pain.
You can destroy it after, it doesn’t need to be perfect or even alright, it’s not its purpose, its a tool and everything else is bonus.
Feeling deeply and caring is a gift, I know it doesn’t feel like it now but it’s a gift that you can experience life more fully, not everyone can.
Caring and carrying pain tells that there is/was something or someone who really matters/mattered to you, which is also a gift that many don’t sadly have.
I’m going to be honest- with chronic issues, there’s no guarantee it will go away…but it can fluctuate in severity.
I’ve used this imagery with people before. Imagine your (depression/anxiety/grief/anger/fill in applicable issue here) is a fire. Some days it’s just embers, other days it feels like an out of control wildfire, or somewhere in between. We are the keepers of our own fires. We try our best everyday to ensure they are protected and nothing unnecessary fans or feeds the flames. Sometimes our life brings with it things we cannot anticipate or is beyond our control that overwhelms our abilities. When things do get intense, we can only manage it until it burns itself down a bit.
The biggest trick is to not fuss too much with our own fires- too many negative thoughts and anxieties can flare things up. On the other hand, completely ignoring them isn’t good either as they’ll die out. Regardless of how we feel about our emotions, we do need them as humans.
I don’t have more of an answer than this. Manage your fires the best you can on any given day, and try your best to reduce risks of them burning out of control. You’ll have days where it feels easy, and days where it doesn’t. But with practice, it might not feel so impossible