I fucking hate wearing hijab

I never really wanted to wear it. It doesn’t make me look good and it just doesn’t suit my vibe. I have a nice hair and I look much better with it. Heck I don’t even believe in this religion but I just pretend I do, I wouldn’t have cared that much if I didn’t wear hijab. I wish it was just easy to remove it but it’s not. I just feel like shit. I envy people who grew up in non-religious households.