might have committed assault and I need help figuring out if my view of the situation is right.

Tw- NSFW, sa maybe idk

I feel awful about this situation and I can’t tell if I unintentionally committed SA or if my anxiety is making me amplify the situation.

This is all based off my memories, which are faulty. I am scared it was worse than this, or the no was more firm and I still ignored it. But this is how I think it went down.

I had been fondling with my at the time bf, and he was telling me to slow down. This was bc he didn’t want to ejaculate in his pants. But I thought I was being sexy and teasing and his body language was very aroused, and I kept my pace or maybe even sped up i don’t remember . At the time I didn’t realize I might have been crossing a boundary or breaking consent. From my memory, (this was 3-4 years ago) He wasn’t outwardly mad about it, but a little awkward. But it’s making me feel like I did a horrible thing. I know I crossed a boundary and won’t repeat this behavior whatever it was SA or not. But I wanted others interpretation of my actions as my anxiety often makes me try and paint myself as a villain more than I should.