Am I wrong for feeling hurt after my father told me he believes I could be a spy sent by my mother to watch him, that I might be staying with him only for his wealth until he dies, or that I could have tried to poison him? And am I wrong for expressing these feelings?

I’ll keep this short and delete the post later.

My parents split up when I was young, and I went to live with my mother. Over time, I noticed a negative change in her behavior, which led me to move in with my father. That was about eight years ago.

Ever since then, my parents have been in a constant legal battle—either over wealth or the custody of my little sister. These ongoing conflicts, combined with my father’s history of getting involved in bad business that includes the worst kind of people, led him to believe that my mother sent me to live with him as a spy, hoping I would report back to her. He has openly expressed these suspicions to me during episodes of anger and distrust. He has never hesitated to voice them.

Hearing such accusations from my own father—the person I love and could never imagine betraying—has caused me immense emotional pain, both then and now. I haven’t hidden my feelings from him. Yet, every time these topics arise, we end up having the same discussion, with him repeating the same phrases, and me trying to convince him that his paranoia is unfounded and that he should seek professional help.

When I tell him how much his words hurt me and damage our relationship, his response is always the same. I ask him how he could believe such things, and he justifies it by citing past experiences. He says things like: “There have been many cases of children killing their parents or staying with them for their wealth. Once you’ve been burned, you even blow on your yogurt out of fear.” Then he insists that he has the right to believe whatever he wants.

I try to explain that it’s not about his right to believe something, but about the impact his words have on the people he’s accusing—especially his own son. He counters by saying that if I have done nothing wrong, I have nothing to fear. I keep trying to make him understand how deeply his suspicions affect me and how they force me to change my perception of him and our relationship. But he always responds by insulting me, reminding me that he is still raising me, paying for my school, and providing for me.

This same scenario plays out every time his suspicions resurface.

I know this post lacks a lot of context, but as I mentioned, I will delete it later. Right now, I just want to hear other people’s opinions. I need to know if I’m wrong for feeling disgust and disappointment toward my own father ever since he shared these thoughts with me? I try to consider his arguments, but I always come back to the same conclusion.