My friend group slowly started leaving me out of everything. They’d hang out without telling me, make new group chats, and post memories I was never invited to be part of. At first, I thought I was overthinking it, but the truth was right there I was being excluded.
What hurts more is that they were always a little microaggressive with me. Subtle comments, side-eyes, jokes that didn’t feel like jokes. It made me feel like I had to shrink myself just to fit in. And when I finally started to pull back for my own peace, they didn’t check in. They didn’t fight for me. They just moved on like I was never part of them to begin with.
Now, I’m alone. And it terrifies me because I’ve always dreamed of deep, real female friendships the kind where we grow together, hype each other up, cry and laugh and heal together. I think about things like my wedding day and how I’m scared I won’t have any bridesmaids standing beside me. Not because I don’t want them, but because I don’t have anyone.
I feel unwanted. Like I’m always the placeholder friend. And I don’t know how to fix that. I just want people who see me, love me, and choose me.
If anyone out there’s felt this, I see you. I just really hope it gets better.
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The pain of feeling unwanted is a dagger to the heart… I get it. You poured your soul into those friendships and got zilch in return. It’s brutal, but you’re not alone. Your worth isn’t defined by others’ actions, you are SO much more than that
How old are yall? Early friendships often don’t last, due to people growing in different directions, interests changing, career changes etc.
If you’re looking for a friend group like you see on tv? Friends, sex and the city, that type? Not happening. This world moves too fast anymore.
But I don’t even want a big friend group, just on that has like 2-4 real people that’ll have my back the way I have theirs…or ones that’ll include me in their hangouts ig. I just wanted to be wanted and appreciated ig