I have a Autism, Ocd traits and history of intrusive thoughts, for a while i was stuck in a loop of assurance checking, typing all sorts of fucked up shit into the internet in hoping it be blocked and i have nothing to fear, i have seen some fucked up stuff, and did my moral duty and reported it, i felt shocked and nothing seeing some of this, i just reported it and got on with my life . Yes i hate myself, and no longer fucking giving in, im done with that, no more.