When I was around 7-8 years I was introduced to porn by my closest friend. We used to watch porn together. I don’t know I didn’t feel any guilt or smth. It was kinda fun to us. He told me to foreplay with him,he put his d in my anal and I put mine into him. This continued for months,we were addicted doing these. We tried different techniques on each other. One day my mom found out and we stopped. But I couldn’t stop my addiction,I still used to watch porn and masturbate from a very young age. I used to masturbate 5-6 times a day when I was just 12. Now I’m around 18 and I have now realised what it has done to me. I’m really traumatised. And now I feel guilty. I have a gf now but I can’t go to normal dates w her, my sperm releases even if she holds my hand or I get erections. My sperm was much thinner back then. Now I’m trying to control myself it’s better than before…still I want some advice how to fix my brain.
(I don’t watch porn now or masturbate;still I can’t control my thoughts or erection)
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Kids will be kids there’s nothing you do about your past you’ve done nothing wrong I know you may not feel like that but it’s fact especially being introduced at such an early age but lad just live ye life for now not for what ye did back then yev got nothing to feel guilty about bro bro believe me
Damn…. this stuff used to happen at my old school all the time. if u ever need to chat im here 🙂 promise im not a pedo
u shud masturbate every 3 days or so to prevent unwanted erections/ejaculations. if you hold it too long ur body craves it.
That’s literally so sad to hear. Early access to internet and parents lack of concern is the worst combination ever. Atleast u have understood now and u wanna change. I’ll advice u to visit a psychologist asap. This trauma will haunt u forever otherwise.
Hey, first off, I’m really sorry you’re dealing with this. It’s really brave of you to open up about it, and you’re not alone in feeling the way you do. What you went through as a kid was definitely messed up and shouldn’t have happened. But you gotta remember that, at that age, you didn’t have the right tools to understand what was going on, and now you’re realizing the impact. That’s progress, not a setback.
The good news is, you’re aware of it now and you’re trying to take steps to fix things. It’s a big deal that you’re not watching porn anymore and that you’re working on controlling your urges. It’s gonna take time, so don’t beat yourself up too much. Maybe talk to a therapist about it? A professional can help you untangle some of this stuff and give you better ways to manage your thoughts and feelings. You’re young, and it’s totally possible to get back to a healthier headspace.
Just remember: healing isn’t a straight line, and you’re doing the right thing by seeking advice and being open about it. You’re not defined by what happened when you were a kid. You’ve got this.