I was forced by a family member when I was just teenager

My uncle came to live with us when I was fourteen and almost to the day he moved in is when the molesting started

Next: When I’m having a hard time getting to sleep, I rearrange my pillows etc so that my head is at the foot end. I do this so often I now automatically move everything before getting into bed. Every morning I make my bed with the pillows at the head again.