For so long I have felt so much sadness inside of my heart. I’ve been treated so coldly by my peers, friends, lovers, and even family. I try so hard to be this strong young woman, but I’m so weak. So weak on the inside! I feel cold, empty, useless, and taken complete advantage of.
I’ve contemplated about ending it all for years! I could never do it because I was such a fighter that I didn’t want to give up. But, I now no longer have that spirit in me anymore.
I spent part of my summer in a mental facility back in 2023. I looked for help! I cried out for it! I wanted it! But, this is where I am today.
I’m gonna take one last time to visit my pawpaws grave to give him some beautiful flowers, and to say one last goodbye.
I don’t want to be found.
I don’t want to be chastised.
I don’t want anything but peace.
So, with that being said wherever the waves take me just know that I’m finally happy.
Thank you!
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Hey, I just read your post, and I truly felt it. I’m so sorry you’ve had to carry all this pain—it’s so much for one heart to hold. And yet you’ve made it this far, which shows how incredibly strong and resilient you really are, even if you don’t feel that way right now.
You might feel invisible or alone, but I promise you, you’re not. Even strangers—like me—are rooting for you, right here and right now. You matter, more than you know.
If you’re in Canada, you can call or text 988 any time of day or night. It’s a free, 24/7 support line with people who will really listen—no judgment, just care. Even if you don’t know what to say, they’ll stay with you through it.
Please, don’t go through this alone. You deserve kindness, healing, and peace—and there are people here who genuinely want to help you find it.
You’re not a burden. You’re human. And the world is better with you in it.
Hi, I see you. It’s the hardest thing to feel alone in this world. I want you to know that you’re not alone, even if it truly feels like you are right now. The world is so much better with you in it, and i’m sure your pawpaw would be telling you this right now if he was here. You’ve done so much already, and that strength is still in you, even if it feels dim right now. I know you’ll meet people in your life and have experiences soon that will make it worth enduring. You can reach out to me or someone else you trust. Let someone help carry this weight with you. You don’t have to do it alone. You matter. Please stay. ❤️
You sound young and the last thing you should do is call it a day. People care more than you realize – even internet strangers. I almost quit in my early 20’s but I didn’t. I’ve been through some truly rough times and it’s made the good ones even better. I can honestly say that I am living my best life now, 40 years after I changed my mind. And it’s all been worth it. Your time isn’t now and your fight isn’t done. YOU CAN DO THIS
Please please please call 988
Please don’t do it. You have something to offer the world and it has so much to offer you. Stick around and find it.