Ive never told anyone this but idk if I’m gonna make it to 23. When I was 12 I was unsure if I was gonna make it to 15 and now at 18 it’s a wonder if I’m gonna make it to 23. It just seems like such a long grueling time. I have pretty bad major depressive disorder and ocd that I treat but I still have pretty bad episodes. I go to college and have a career I’m working toward but I wonder if I’m gonna make it. I don’t date cause I wouldn’t want to put that burden on someone and I have no friends even though I try. Its alot better than when i was younger and my mental health has improved with treatment but anyone ever feel like this?
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I used to constantly wonder about it. Right now I’ve found a good balance. So I’m 33 and the thing that keeps me going is seeing what the next day will bring. If it’s bad then I’m already to the mentality of fuck it so it’s not like it hurts me any more than what I’mconstantly at already. If it’s good then at least I got to see something else that’s beautiful or I got to do something kind. Idk if it helps or not but maybe you’ll get to see something beautiful tomorrow.
I am 23 and let me tell you as annoying as some stuff is right now in general it’s great I think you’ll be ok and I wish you the best man!