look, I know this could probably be teenager angst. but I’m already 20… and I can’t stand my family.
they’re mostly 50+ people, so I don’t have a lot in common with them (they aren’t really progressive, kind of homophobic, and misogynistic too…)
I’m currently at my aunt’s birthday, and I can’t stand being here a second more.
They aren’t doing anything bad… they’re singing music of their times, they’re eating small entries and having fun, but I’m not.
I don’t understand their humor, nor why they would like to be 6+ hours with one another… It’s uncomfortable for me. I dislike being here and having to stay on the table after food. I hate having to clap for every single thing the birthday woman has to say. I hate singing for them (and they make me)
Yes, I could go because I have an apartment on the city. But that would be rude, and they would let me know immediately. It would be a drama…
I didn’t even wanna come today. I would like a Sunday that’s just for me. Yes, for 6 days a week I don’t have to see them. But every Sunday I’m expected to be here (birthday or not) for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
I can’t break tradition, but I’m honestly done.
I don’t know what to do. Should I just disappear? Should I say I’m busy every single Sunday from now on…? I know I should love being with them, but I don’t. I just can’t stand them.