I lost my best friend because of my ego, and it’s something I still regret deeply.

There was a time when I had someone really special in my life — not a girlfriend, but someone even more important. She was my best friend. We shared everything — dark humor, jokes, silly fights, life talks, and moments of pure peace. She cared for me in a way I didn’t even realize back then.

But I messed up. Big time.

I had a huge ego. I was careless with words, said things without thinking. Slowly, I started ignoring her for no reason. Even when she kept checking on me, I just pushed her away. One day, she finally said:
“If you don’t care about anyone, why should I care about you? It’s over.”
And she left.

At the time, I didn’t even apologize. My pride wouldn’t let me. I convinced myself she was overreacting. But months passed, and the weight of my mistake hit me hard. I finally said sorry after five months… but by then, she was a completely different person. Cold. Distant. Like I never existed.

I still miss her. I still scroll through old photos and feel a lump in my throat. Most of them I deleted in anger back then — another thing I regret.

She used to hold my hand when I looked at other girls, and we’d laugh about it. We were so comfortable with each other, no labels, no lust — just pure connection. She made me feel like I didn’t need anyone else.

And now, she’s gone. I ruined it.

I’ve learned that no matter how tough or proud you think you are, don’t let ego ruin something real. Don’t make permanent decisions in temporary anger. You’ll end up regretting it.

I don’t expect sympathy, I just needed to get this off my chest.

Thanks for reading.