20F
TD;LR
So the case here is that I’ve been on and off with my Ex Boyfriend for 3 years now, I moved away (out of state) 2 years ago and we meet every summer or sometimes just spontaneously (long distance trips) to get together again. We’ve never stopped talking even after the ‘break up’ and even when I did try to move on and block him for good he’d cry and beg me to stay in contact with him even though he’s not very good romantically or just in general as a person when it comes to me. I’ve recently been talking to a couple guys online, I flirt with them occasionally but specifically only one of them I’ve actually gotten close to.
I’m not in a relationship with any of these men but I still feel incredibly guilty, almost like I’m cheating on my Ex even though we’re not even officially dating. The new guy is very sweet (long distance as well) and even buys me dinner and small gifts.. we talk on the phone often. He’s not a bad guy and I’ve known him for about 4 months now. He doesn’t know about my Ex or that I still see him. The confession I’m here to make is that I’m meeting with my Ex again this weekend for a hookup, but feel as though I’m betraying the new guy I’ve met even though I’m not in a relationship with him either. I’m not sure how to feel anymore about it, I don’t think I’m made for the relationship scene.