TLDR: Me F 18 and my bf M 18 have been together for two years and I’ve been having dreams of him and me cheating. They have lasted our entire relationship and they happen almost every night. These dreams get so bad I wake up having panic attacks and I’m losing sleep over this. Any advice on getting over this cheating fear and/or my past relationship trauma.
Me (F 18) and my bf (M 18) have been together for two years now. I know we are very young but this is the first healthy and genuine relationship I’ve ever been in. I have BPD and a lot of past relationship trauma. I’ve been cheated on by practically all my exes, so I’m a very anxious person. I’ve been healing a lot and doing so much better thanks to him. However, I’ve been having dreams of him cheating on me and also me cheating on him since we got together. I figured that maybe the dreams would go away the longer we’ve been together and the more I trust him, but it feels like they’ve gotten worse. I tend to overthink and over analyze my dreams. Sometimes I convince myself it’s a sign and he really is cheating. It’s getting to the point where I’m waking up hyperventilating and panicking. I feel emotions very intensely and these dreams are just too much for me to handle. I’m losing sleep over this. I have real bad PTSD so I also think that’s definitely a factor. I wanna know if anyone has any advice on getting over this fear of my partner cheating? I fear I’ll never let this fear go and it’ll always cause me stress. Or if anyone has advice on getting over past relationship trauma and just any advice really.