Trigger warning ⚠️
So to start out ever since i was young and my cousins moved away i would go to their house all the time in the summer. We would play games, go to the lake, Sleepovers all the fun stuff. We were all close in age but i was the only girl. And my cousins would always have their friends over and Idk why but I had the fattest crush on one of my cousins friends. Fast forward a few years later my parents divorced and my dad owned the house so we moved to my aunts house just because we needed somewhere to stay and my dad was not having it. So we moved to my aunts house im living there for about a year until we start renting an apartment im going to the same school as my cousins and his friends whatever and i still have the biggest crush on this one dude I see him everywhere even comes to our family events because he is so close with my cousins family me and him have each other on snapchat and we did streaks and we would occasionally text and whatever but nothing too serious because he was 2 years older than me i was 12 and he was 14 he had a girlfriend so i didnt really like think much of it that he would like me back But anyway this is when it took place it was late winter it was The 2020 super-bowl and his parents went out of town to go see the Superbowl He texts me and asks me if i wanted to come over to watch it and in my head i was like..? what the hell … Why is he inviting me over i was shocked honestly.. but then he says itll be fun so i say sure and mind you its not with anyone else just me and him so he walks to my apartment complex and i come down to the lobby and we walk to his house its not that far from where i live and we were talking about school and stuff on the way there and then we get to his house and we go in his house he shows me around because ive never been there before and were watching the Superbowl and i dont understand any of football but whatever he gets up to go to the bathroom and im sitting there thinking to myself this is like crazy and he comes back and sits like right next to me because before he was sitting at the end and i was sitting in the middle he has an L couch so u can imagine so anyway he sits closer to me and im like okay thats weird and then he ends up putting his arm over mine and im like freaking out in my head my face turns red and my heart is pounding and he pulls a blanket from the couch puts it on us whatever and then his hand starts trying to slide up my shirt and im putting my hand over and taking his hand off his to stop it and then it starts sliding down my pants and i really say stop that time and i go to the bathroom call my mom and she picks me up from his house and i didnt see him till the summer and it was almost like he was embarrassed to be around me every time i would go to my cousins house and he was there he would leave instantly and fast forward to now he will be at my cousins house and it will make me soooo uncomfortable knowing what he did to me it makes me sick just this new years he was at my cousins house and i was crying in the bathroom and i sat in my cousins kitchen the whole time because it made me sooo uncomfortable to be around him and i just cant be around him nobody knows about this and its really been eating me alive for real and i dont know if its sexual assult or not thats why ive chosen to be quiet