She is my first girlfriend, and I’m her first long-term relationship. Throughout our time together, I worked on improving myself, but I realize it wasn’t enough to make drastic changes. We broke up on March 2nd after an argument, and I didn’t hear from her for a few days. She went no-contact and I reached out twice afterward, expressing my thoughts and letting her know I’m going to therapy, while validating her feelings. She got sad, as it felt like everything came too late.
Last Sunday, I was supposed to drop off her things, but we ended up texting. She expressed feeling sad, and in the course of our conversation, she asked if we could get back together and call it a day . I called her, we talked for a bit, and I ended up staying over for four days. During that time, I started to feel insecure because we didn’t have a label, and she said she needed time to think about what she wanted.i kept pushing her while she had so much on her plate.
On the last day, she initially wanted me to stay over but changed her mind. I got upset and vented to her, which led to her crying and becoming frustrated. The next day, she sent a message saying that a part of her wanted to be with me, but that no matter if we were friends or dating, the same issues would resurface. She tried to end things on a good note, but I was still upset, and I didn’t want to keep going in circles. Out of frustration, she said goodbye and blocked me on everything—something she had done before but unblocked me for when I had her things.
Currently, I’m focused on therapy and working on myself for my own growth. If she decides to come back, I’d be open to that, but I also want to be sure I’m in a better place emotionally and mentally. I know she loves me deeply. During our breakup, I made the mistake of reading her personal notes, which revealed how she still cares for me. It was clear from what I read that she’s in pain from the situation.
I’m just seeking advice on how to handle this kind of situation and any similar experiences from others who have gone through something like this. I know it’s not ideal to have these ups and downs, but I want to make sure I’m taking the right steps for my own healing, regardless of what happens.
TL;DR 2 times it happened is their possibility for the future ?