I’m averageish looking, not ugly but somewhat bland, good body mid face, and poorer. He’s very good looking, has been described as literally angelic looking, and rich. I don’t think I could get anybody else and if I did not anybody better I guess
We’re both teenagers so it’s more so his family is rich than he is but theyre like mega rich, like I wouldn’t have to be worried about anything
We’ve been together a year and a half and he gets so scared like everyday that I’m gonna leave him because he knows he doesn’t treat me well but at this point I don’t think I guess I can pass up his money, it could give me a dream life compared to how I grew up
I also love him but it’s like I’m so tired of him. I know I must seem so awful now with how I talk about him but I haven’t always been like this but he talks about wanting to hit me in the face, beat me, choke me, beat me till I’m paralyzed or till my nose breaks (in his words so I suffer more because I’m insecure about my nose), very I guess violent stuff. He also insulted me a lot calls me stupid and r worded, screams at me while cursing, and says shut the fuck up and fuck you to me. He’s also joked about killing me although he is the kinda person with those kinds of thoughts so it’s a kinda serious joke. He’s a very troubled person considering his privileged life. I don’t really know what’s wrong with him I guess, I’m assuming it’s a genetic thing. The only things he’s diagnosed with are ADHD, Asperger’s, and depression
He has been in a lot of trouble literally by the age 13. (He’s 14 now I’m 15) He’s beat many people bad, he had to be pulled out of school, in his own mother’s words so he wouldn’t kill someone, he’s been in handcuffs, he’s beaten family members, he’s grabbed his own sister by the neck when yelling at her (he actually told me about this to REASSURE me he wouldn’t hit me even tho he wants to do it because that’s the worst he did to her and apparently he doesn’t view it as that bad and he wanted to do worse to her)
He also says if I don’t like him anymore he’s gonna kill himself so yeah im kinda cooked. And if he kills himself our friend will also kill himself so, double not great.
It’s also 1 am right now and I’m only still up cause he was screaming at me when I was trying to sleep earlier on call with him and now it’s hard to sleep but I’m quite tired so I’m sorry if there’s poor wording