I think my days are finally numbered

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26(M) I’ve been dealing with severe depression for the last decade, I think it has finally won. I walked out on my therapist the other day after telling her the truth and that I’m giving up on my life. I’m incapable of change, I realize that now. If I really had it in me I would have done something by now but I can’t even try. No job, no friends, never been in love, didn’t go to school, I don’t want to play catch up. I’ve wasted so much time, and I’m probably going to end up wasting more. On my way home from the therapists office I bought some sleeping pills and I have been taking them to stay asleep as long as humanly possible, I take one as soon as I wake up now. Don’t know if that will be my method as I have recently discovered a gun hidden in my basement. Anyways, I don’t exactly know why I’m typing this but it is what it is.

Comments

  1. Iluvatar73 Avatar

    Don’t do it bro, your life is of great and enormous value!

  2. Away-Butterfly-9763 Avatar

    you typed it because you subconsciously want help. It sounds like your therapist isn’t right for you if you’ve been lying to her. Get a new one, try medications since this is a long term problem. I was against it for a while but it truly helps once you find the right one. You’re loved and you have a purpose here.