I HATE MY EX BOYFRIEND (i cant edit the title)
TRIGGER WARNING: SEXUAL ASSULT
Hello everyone. I’m 21F and I was sexually assulted by my 21M EX boyfriend.
My ex BF was very mentally and emotionally abusive towards me. He never seemed to like me and only used me for sex and company like I was an escort or something. We were together for about a year and we broke up about twice before our final break up.
During our first break up he asked me to hang out with him (my mistake for still wanting to be his friend after the break up) and when we hung out he love bombed me and told me he loved me and couldn’t live without me and whatever. Well, I accepted because I still loved him back and we got back together. He then took me to his house, fucked me, took me home and dunped me right after. Yup, he texted me and told me he couldn’t do this (as in be with me) and broke up with me. He deeply hurt me.
Well, two months later we got back together (I know you can call me stupid lol). We decided we both wanted to make things work and so we gave it a try. A couple months i to the relationship again he begged me and begged me to give him a hand job and I told him I didnt want to. He continued to beg and beg and beg me until I gave him and gave him a handjob. I stopped and told him I wasn’t comfortable with it. He then asked me to give him a blowjob and I told him I didnt want to and again, he begged and begged and begged until I did. I started to cry mid blow job bcs again, I didnt fucking want to and he told me to stop bcs I was ruining things. I have PTSD due to other traumas and bcs of it I started to emotionally shut down. I needed space and he wouldnt give me space. He then started guilt tripping me telling ne that he is the worst boyfriend and that I should leave him. I then had to apologize to him and reassure him.
Little did I know that this wasn’t going to be the first or the last time it was going to happen. Yup, my ex would grope me in public. He would hump me in public and in two other instances he forced me to blow him. There was even a couple of times where sex was coerced but my brain hasn’t registered that trauma yet lol.
He also would call me stupid. He made me feel dumb for asking questions. He called me fat on a couple of occasions (keep in mind I have an eating disorder lol). He was never really a good boyfriend to me.
He doesnt have any drive. He is selfish. He yells at his mom and at his sister. And tbh the only things he really liked were his cats.
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That’s intense. Would you be open to therapy?
It seem like you very Clearly should get as far away from him as possible
That’s no way to live. You have the strength get up and run from him before you are sucked in even more than you already are
Yeah, i think you can work things out
That’s sad. You’re not the first to be attached to someone abusive.
A girl I was talking to, and liked so much, just ghosted me since she isn’t over her cheating ex. He was abusing her and yet she was driving 5 hours to his house to get laid and come back again the next week.
It’s insane sometimes what people can do, even if they know it won’t work and the guy is clearly taking advantage of her.
Seek therapy, wishing you the best.
you’re clearly aware he sucks. is some rando on reddit validating you really going to be the reason you finally put yourself first?
if someone assaults you, don’t fucking go back over to their house so it can happen again
guys there was a typo on the title but through out the post i did refer to him as an EX boyfriend as in we are NO LONGER together i’m gonna see if i can edit that or not lol
Well may I ask why he is your boyfriend then? Actually ask yourself that
What a piece of human garbage. 🤦♀️ I’m glad he’s your ex; nobody should have to deal with someone like that, and I hope it stays that way.
I don’t blame you for getting back with him two months later. Definitely not a good idea, but a lot of abusers are good at getting their victims attached to them.
Yikes. Fuck that guy and I hope you can heal to be happy in the future 🥺
This genuinely just sounds like my ex, word for word. I’m do sorry this happened to you. Don’t put yourself down because you got back with him, he was manipulative. You are a victim, and it’s not your fault. I hope you can heal properly. Remember: you are not alone.