My cousin who I don’t know the name of since this happened a few years ago before I was even born because my father told me this. And afther it am starting to lose my humanity on how people are just fucking assholes.
My poor cousin killed himself when he was very young because his father brutally murder somone infront of him. This deeply trumized him, as he never through he was capable of taking a life as his dad was a very loving man.
I assume he hide his depression/ptsd from his mother until it was too late and he shot himself.
Everyone in my family hated him for it including my father because they all care about how his mother felt. She cried everyday afther the suicide.
And I am like wtf is wrong with you people? Blaming a fucking child who did nothing to deserve what has happened to him. Blame his less of a fucking man father who truamuzed his kid. Not him.
And this also ties up with my depression as I relate to him so much. I also was hurted by our family. My goddamn half teenager sister sexually abuse me during my childhood and nobody cared. And nobody care about his suffering either. And I want to die as a young person myself.
I get so fucking piss off with humans who automatically think people with depression are these selfish crowded individuals who don’t care about people, when most of the time we think we failed as a human. And you never once dealt with this monster.