Three days ago I hurt my arm lifting. I’m not sure what I did, but I legit can barely move my left arm without it hurting really bad. It’s slowly getting better but it’s basically non functional as of right now.
I decided to text some people who I thought were friends asking if any of them had a sling I could use. The people I have looked out for and dropped everything during emergencies. I’ve lended money I didn’t have, bought gas, food, given literal clothes off my back, free therapy, you fucking name it. I’ve never asked for anything in return until now.
Not a single one of them gave me a text back. Not a no or a yes. Just nothing. Ghost. I know for a fact they’ve all seen it. One of them just flat out left me on read.
I’m not even worth a text back. Not even a “Hey man I’m sorry about your arm but I don’t have a sling. I hope you get better soon.” I’m not even worth two sentences.
I’ve had a lot of brutal wakeup calls, but this one takes the trophy. I truly have nobody but myself. I am completely alone in this fucked up demented world. I could be lying dead somewhere and not a single person would give a fuck. I’m the equivalent of a disposable camera.
I might as well just stop coping give up and dip out. I can’t take this pain anymore, and I’m not talking about the pain my arm is currently in. I’m always there for everyone and nobody even gives a single fuck about me.
I give up. I really mean it this time. I truly do. I’m done.
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I’m sorry you’re feeling rejected by the people you are close to. If you put a post on fb for your area, i feel like there’s possibility to find one before you buy one.
as far as injuries go, make sure you’re not overdoing it. i hope you find some relief soon.
You need to get out more and make new friends! The world is not all bad, I promise.
Get the Meet Up app. My wife and I used it quite a bit before we moved. It lists hikes and loads of other things to do that mostly anyone can sign up for. We did a lot of day hikes.
It’s “a social networking platform that helps people discover and connect with others who share similar interests, hobbies, or career goals.”
Just fyi but a sling made my arm hurt even worse so you might not want to use one. You can always make one using a cloth or towel but I just stuck my hand in my sweatshirt pocket. Friends come and go. Don’t let the bastards get you down. New friends will come. Good luck
You sound like a great friend. Move on from them. You will find real friends!
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