I am 31 and recently had my heart broken for the first time. I was seeing a guy (45) for a short time but I got attached quickly. I didn’t think he was my forever person, but he made me feel like he wanted more from me after we were intimate. He broke things off, and a little over a month later is in a relationship with another woman. I have been replaying everything that happened to see what went wrong. I have been comparing myself to her, to see what she has that I don’t. I wait for him to text me, to tell me he made a mistake or he misses me, even though I know it won’t happen. I am so tired. I am emotionally drained, I cry myself to sleep, and I can’t even focus at work. I’m in therapy, but it’s not helping. I am trying to move on but I feel like I can’t. And what’s more confusing is that I only “knew” this man for less than 2 weeks! And it has been almost 2 months and I’m still spiraling. I just want to move on with my life, but I’m still so hurt and confused.
I will add that I know this wasn’t love. But I have been going through personal issues/loneliness and it has been hard for me to meet men. I have been working on getting hobbies and going out more; I feel better for some time but then I start thinking about him again