The last three years I’ve met two men in particular who I had feelings for that I’ve never felt. I’ll call the. W and A. When I was seeing W, well I got scared and I ended things😪… he was so sweet, kind, easy to talk to. He is such a beautiful man too. The connection was so euphoric. This was two years ago. I still think about him. I don’t think I’ll ever forget him. After him I didn’t want to see anyone seriously because I was searching for that feeling again.
Then I met A, I felt a similar way about him. He was all the good things of W but when he wanted to be. He didn’t like my past and used it to justify why he would do or say things. Before he started all that, I had that feeling for him. I still do I think. Anytime I see something about his hometown I’m thinking about him. But I remind myself of one of our last interactions and I push the feeling aside.