19M bi/probably just gay. I met a guy on an online dating app and decided to meet at his. My first time for any of this stuff. We did some things but I had 2 problems. The first is that despite getting hard extremely easily I didn’t ejaculate. Instead I had this long lasting, fuzzy kind of feeling that made my whole body feel electric and weak. After I felt that I was asked to suck, which I wanted to do but I had to take a breather first.
The 2nd issue was that things led to other things and I wanted to take it in the ass. But that hurt too much after he stuck it in so we stopped. I kind of wanted to do it and now I’m sad we couldn’t carry on, but it hurt too much to do. I fingered myself first and used plenty of lube, but it didn’t work.
After he came we cuddled for a few hours or so.
The whole experience left me happy but I’m still confuddled by what my sexuality is still, a little sad that I lost my virginity to taking a single thrust in the ass but I want to do it more even though it hurt. I really needed to share this somewhere as I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this, so I’m leaving this really embarrassing (for me) confession here.