I think I’ve conditioned my brain to need masturbation to fall asleep, and now I don’t know if it’s sleep hygiene or emotional damage.

r/

So I have a big presentation tomorrow. I need to sleep.

But my brain? Wide awake. Running anxiety loops like it’s training for a marathon.

And for some reason, the only “off switch” it recognizes now is… you know. ✋

Here’s the thing I’m not even that horny.

It’s not lust. It’s like… muscle memory.

Some of my friends admitted they do it too — “just to fall asleep.”

And I think somewhere along the line, my brain went:

“Ah yes, we’re doing that again. Must be bedtime.”

I don’t know if this is healthy.

I don’t know if I’m using my genitals as emotional NyQuil.

All I know is, I kinda want to sleep, not scroll, not think, just… knock out.

But now I’m lying here overthinking if this is a sleep hack or a cry for help.

Can’t sleep. Don’t feel horny. Brain says: jerk off and let’s knock out.

Might be broken, but at least I’m functional.

Comments

  1. TheBullishElf Avatar

    It does generate warmth in the body.

  2. KoalaEntire5016 Avatar

    It gets big and I just do it for a bit but I can’t sleep without doing it

  3. BytePhilosopher-78 Avatar

    it honestly sounds like you’re dealing with a hormonal imbalance. It’s not even about pleasure anymore, your brain just linked it with falling asleep. That’s more of a mental loop than anything else, but it can be fixed.
    The key is shifting your mindset and cleaning up the mental associations. But nothing changes unless you help yourself first. Try taking a short break like a week or two. It gives your hormones a chance to rebalance a bit.
    I was in the exact same spot. I started helping myself with a better diet, regular workouts, and daily supplements, especially magnesium to keep my hormones stable. Once my body felt more balanced, it got way easier to manage my thoughts and habits.

  4. trojan25nz Avatar

    Don’t change the pattern right now

    Change it once the presentation is done, when it’s a little calmer

    You notice this pattern, now you don’t have a reason to just go along. Now you have to actually measure its value and weigh its costs

    When you’re stressed, you’re more likely to fall into pattern behaviour, and if you know this pattern doesn’t work for you… break it. Do something else

    Block websites on your phone. Call family right before bed. Go exercise, push yourself, then snooze

    If the pattern is hurting more than it’s helping, when you’re calmer break the pattern 

  5. TheBullishElf Avatar

    Hey, I remember u commented something a day ago and you said you had a gf or something and u bit her lips. Why not just satisfy your desires by having s*x with said gf.