14 April 2019, my mom asked me(15F) to help my uncle at his house. I reluctantly agreed because said uncle always made me uncomfortable because when I was younger he tried touching me and I told my mom about it.My mom never said anything to him or me. He always portrayed himself as the fun uncle the one who would let you drink and smoke etc. When I was at his place he offered me a beer. I drank it really slowly. The thing about me is that it’s not my first time drinking I used to drink a lot at that age and one beer would not get me drunk. We ate and I helped him packing some boxes for him to move then we sat on the couch to watch a movie. I suffer from insomnia so I normally don’t sleep. I started feeling dizzy then next thing I know is I woke up with him on top of me forcing himself into me. I was too weak to do anything. I just remember it was going on for hours. He put me under cold water to wake me up and continued until morning as if he wanted me to remember it then asked me to take a shower in front of him then he dropped me home. I struggled so much after that I started drinking more everyday until I nearly killed myself then I told my mom about it and she kicked me out of her house. Now I’m turning 22 this year I thought I would get over it but I’m still struggling with it. I just left my boyfriend of 5 years it will be the first night I spend alone on this day. My anxiety got so bad I’m literally shaking while writing this. I know the nightmares will come back. I never got over it I am just sober for once.
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Damn, what a bunch of assholes. This is just insane. I’m sorry you had to go through all this, you surely don’t deserve this. I hope you’re doing well. Have you tried to get some help from your dad/brothers/relatives/friends/police?
Ik it’s cliché advice but talk to someone. Genuinely, this is a horrific experience and I’m so sorry for you. But you need to get some help, talk to your mum again or even a charity for rape victims. Drinking your problems away won’t help, did your bf know? You could talk to him again. Just talk to someone who’s going to care, and pick up a hobby or something. A purpose in life will restore you so much. Once again, I’m so sorry this has happened to you. But suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Hope you feel better as soon as possible 🙂
Jesus christ, I’m sorry you had such assholes for a mother and uncle.. I hope you find the peace you deserve, and don’t have to have anything to do with them anymore..
My husband had a similar thing happen and had the same results. His family wouldn’t listen as the uncle was so respected and was becoming a powerful man in society. He has told his mother several times even with me present yet he was brushed off, even questioned over what actually happened as it was so long ago. His mother has passed away for a few years now and his uncle is in a prestigious position and has lots of clout in the cities and government. He dealt with it by making himself out to be the best father and abhors sex offenders with a passion. You may not get results with your situation but you can get involved with groups and help others with getting justice. Don’t break just bend is his motto and he is the strongest person I’ve ever met