Not achieving my dreams. I’ve been able to get every single thing I set my mind to. Now the challenge is to dream bigger and bigger because I will make it happen. Most people don’t understand and judge my big dreams.
Once the type of relationship we have is defined, my brain can’t leave the bounds of that type of relationship. It’s not that it won’t, it just can’t. We can get closer or father apart in that type of relationship, but my brain can’t figure out how to cross the lines from one type of relationship to another.
So, if you’re my friend, I can never see you as more than a friend.
I’ve never been able to turn an acquaintance into a friend. Friendly acquaintances is as close as it will get.
And I can’t get into relationships with people don’t know and trust. However, if I know and trust you, we must have some sort of defined relationship. And my brain won’t be able to shift that to a different kind of relationship.
Being average. My whole life I’ve felt strongly that I have some important purpose in life where I’m meant to be a leader in some big capacity. My family has ALWAYS pushed me down, making my dreams out to be unrealistic and continue encouraging mediocre paths.
When I’ve tried their advice, I end up failing or bad luck pushes me out of those situations anyways. I lost so many jobs and housing situations in a five year span but looking back I realized that had I not gone through all of that, I wouldn’t have come across a life changing research trial that I believe cured me of my severe ptsd. It was also those situations that gave me an incredible idea that could literally bring solutions to multiple problems we’re facing.
I’m still exhausted most days but I’m slowly gaining momentum and trying to figure out my next step in the process which is creating a small t shirt business to help me ultimately get out of debt, repair my credit after going through financial instability due to job losses, housing losses, deep existential depression, and ptsd, and meanwhile draw up my business plan.
That I will start enjoyng alcohol sooner or later, if not for the taste then just the sake of getting drunk. Ive never had a desire for it and I do not see it changing. I dont mind people drinking alcohol but Ive never been interested in it. Dont know why.
Have kids (no thanks! I don’t hate kids, I just don’t want to be permanently responsible for somebody as fragile as human life! I can barely take care of myself)
That I will feel like someone in my life actually loves me and cares for me. I’m told that will happen but I’ve been married for a decade and still haven’t found it.
People tell me I’ll get better. doctors too. I have a plethora of chronic illnesses that I was born with. Some deformities in my spine. I’m always in some level of pain. Rarely under a 4. And as I age so will my problems. And you know the spiel diet exercise light walking take medicine. Etc. My body will continue to deteriorate over time. I’m not gonna live until I’m 90 you know and that’s okay. I firmly and wholeheartedly believe that my issues will just worsen. Right now I’m okay in a good place. Just living for the day with my daughter my family and my husband. So when someone tells me don’t worry it’ll happen pass or it’ll get better. I know it comes from a wonderful hopeful place but I know deep down that’s not true.
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Two professors at my college told me I won’t make a good doctor
Die 😂
Getting into a relationship
Having kids lmao
being happy again lol, and im only 23… gonna be in for a long ride
Happiness and mental health
Becoming more conservative with age. I know my values, and will likely only lean further left as the years go by
Not achieving my dreams. I’ve been able to get every single thing I set my mind to. Now the challenge is to dream bigger and bigger because I will make it happen. Most people don’t understand and judge my big dreams.
Getting married
I’ll gain ton of weight . I got a fast metabolism
Getting kidnapped from a grocery store
Becoming a victim of gun violence.
I doubt I’m getting married
Will realise that I want to have children at some point
My life getting better
That I’ll “be OK.”
Rectile dysfunction. I don’t carry the equipment
Win the lottery
Getting into a romantic relationship.
Once the type of relationship we have is defined, my brain can’t leave the bounds of that type of relationship. It’s not that it won’t, it just can’t. We can get closer or father apart in that type of relationship, but my brain can’t figure out how to cross the lines from one type of relationship to another.
So, if you’re my friend, I can never see you as more than a friend.
I’ve never been able to turn an acquaintance into a friend. Friendly acquaintances is as close as it will get.
And I can’t get into relationships with people don’t know and trust. However, if I know and trust you, we must have some sort of defined relationship. And my brain won’t be able to shift that to a different kind of relationship.
The older I get the less I care about anything. That includes politics. Doesn’t matter who wins, I’m always going to be poor.
Marriage. I’m not against it, just don’t think it’ll happen.
Being average. My whole life I’ve felt strongly that I have some important purpose in life where I’m meant to be a leader in some big capacity. My family has ALWAYS pushed me down, making my dreams out to be unrealistic and continue encouraging mediocre paths.
When I’ve tried their advice, I end up failing or bad luck pushes me out of those situations anyways. I lost so many jobs and housing situations in a five year span but looking back I realized that had I not gone through all of that, I wouldn’t have come across a life changing research trial that I believe cured me of my severe ptsd. It was also those situations that gave me an incredible idea that could literally bring solutions to multiple problems we’re facing.
I’m still exhausted most days but I’m slowly gaining momentum and trying to figure out my next step in the process which is creating a small t shirt business to help me ultimately get out of debt, repair my credit after going through financial instability due to job losses, housing losses, deep existential depression, and ptsd, and meanwhile draw up my business plan.
Being rich
At this point, owning my own place, or even renting a place without a flatmate.
That I will start enjoyng alcohol sooner or later, if not for the taste then just the sake of getting drunk. Ive never had a desire for it and I do not see it changing. I dont mind people drinking alcohol but Ive never been interested in it. Dont know why.
Cancer. It’s hit everyone in my family. It can’t get us all.
Me landing a job that pays well and that I’ll actually enjoy for a change
Get married and/or fall in love
Have kids (no thanks! I don’t hate kids, I just don’t want to be permanently responsible for somebody as fragile as human life! I can barely take care of myself)
Finding a partner
That I will feel like someone in my life actually loves me and cares for me. I’m told that will happen but I’ve been married for a decade and still haven’t found it.
People tell me I’ll get better. doctors too. I have a plethora of chronic illnesses that I was born with. Some deformities in my spine. I’m always in some level of pain. Rarely under a 4. And as I age so will my problems. And you know the spiel diet exercise light walking take medicine. Etc. My body will continue to deteriorate over time. I’m not gonna live until I’m 90 you know and that’s okay. I firmly and wholeheartedly believe that my issues will just worsen. Right now I’m okay in a good place. Just living for the day with my daughter my family and my husband. So when someone tells me don’t worry it’ll happen pass or it’ll get better. I know it comes from a wonderful hopeful place but I know deep down that’s not true.
‘You will be happier closer to home.’
Love
I feel like I’m safe from cancer, even though every elderly member of my family has had it and or died from it
Winning the lottery.
Winning the lottery
I’m never gonna grow a set of balls.
Being fully happy
Finding someone who actually loves me and getting married
Romantic relationship.
getting a relationship definitely
Won’t be able to see Andromeda & mily way merge. Hey man screw you I’ll fight death even if I have to, to see that. 😂🤣
I will never beg over a guy
That life gets better
Get hit by a lighting