Essentially from the age of 4 till I was around 12 years old I was subjected to various methods often used as torture techniques. The following are not an exhaustive list of things that happened to me.
Being forced to hold stress positions (half press up, 6 inch leg raise etc), failure to do so would result in physical violence.
Sensory deprivation. I was forced to sit on a line of tape in the middle of a room with a large wooly hat pulled over my eyes.
Isolation. While everyone left the household I was forced to sit in a hallway, 6 inches from the wall and stare at it until I was no longer alone, where I would then return to my bedroom. There was a camera recording me the entire time to ensure I didn’t move.
Regular acts of violence.
I was unable to leave the property or my ‘bedroom’ (it was a room with a bed and a set of draws) for an entire year aside from to the bathroom and to collect my food.
While food was provided, I at the time had undiagnosed ARFID and would not eat for days at a time as the meal from the night before would be presented the next day.
Like I said it’s not an exhaustive list, I’m now 29 years old, a father, undertaking a degree with a promising career at the end of it.
So yeah, any questions please ask, I find talking about it cathartic.
I was essentially tortured as a child, AMA
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Why would your caretakers do such inhumane things to you?! I’m so sorry!!
You might‘ve had heard that a lot of times already but I‘m so so sorry.
Do you have any idea what got your parents into doing that?
Do you have siblings? If yes, how‘d they handle the situation?
Who else was in your household and what were their roles? (And if anyone else also went through the same thing you did) What happened when you were 12 to end it?
Regardless I am so sorry you went through that. I don’t know you but it is clear you have shown great strength and resilience, the evidence is in your accomplishments, the world is proud of you and I hope you are too. I wish you the best!
How are you?
Were you taken out of the home at 12?
What punishment did the POS who put you through this face?
How do you feel about living though that (stronger because you survived, weaker because of how you see yourself)? I know this might sound like a F’ed up question but really course how you see yourself now.
Do you feel like you might be more empathetic towards others or a little harder because of the shit you went through?
what are you studying in college?