i’ve fucked up my life SO BAD i struggling with psychosis and terrible episodes. when i have such episodes along with the screaming and breaking things blah blah blah, i sometimes post on twitter rambling about my beliefs and speak of committing terrible acts. irls found this account and my life was already fucked up before this. but most of my friends dropped me because they think i’m a fucjing lunatic. am i able to just fake my own su¡cide , send out a couple letters not fully stating that i’ve took my life, only saying “im not sure if or when ill be back” etc.. and then completely disappear to a different country for a while?? how would people react when i just randomly pop back up, completely different and (hopefully) healed???? sorry if this doesn’t make sense at all, but help/advise would be appreciated SO MUCH because ngl i’m completely lost at the moment.. 😓
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Hey, it seems like you’re having a rough time. Yes, people would be mad about you staging your own death, but I think your chief worry right now should be your own health.
I’m not a mental health professional, but there are others who are. I had a crisis almost a year ago after a rough breakup where I was having thoughts of self-harm. I called a hotline and just sobbed on the phone for a good twenty minutes and talked about everything bothering me. I don’t know why, but it helped. The woman on the line had a very kind way of speaking to me. Point is, there are people you can talk to when you’re at your worst. Hope that helps.
your problems will still be there when u come back
Are you seeing a therapist or anyone to talk about your psychosis episodes? Also, faking your death, especially a suicide, isn’t going to help either. It won’t resolve the issues you’re facing either, just putting a buffer in and extending it.
It sounds like you’re having a really rough time at the moment. What support do you have? I think if you can speak to a trusted person about how you are feeling that would be a good move.
Disappearing isn’t easy, you need ID or an SSN for pretty much everything so you would get found. Just leaving letters isn’t enough to be declared dead. I think this wouldn’t solve your problems. Please try to reach out to friends, family, and mental health support
Some guy did that around 2000 years ago, and apparently, we are still waiting for him to come. I think he got lost wherever he went. you be careful tho
You tricking them into thinking you are dead will confirm that you are unstable to your friends. Is there a mental health facility you can check into nearby for a short time? It might give you the small break you are looking for and show to your friends that you are trying to get better.
yes because the emotional turmoil you would put those people through is borderline criminal. please do not play with people’s emotions like that like that’s one quick way to give someone you love a fkn heart attack. if you’re struggling and need space away from your family, either check into a mental health facility or live somewhere else for a few months until you feel ready to come back but don’t just say your dead and then reappear
I looked through your post history, if you really are 13, I don’t think faking your own death would be a viable option in the first place.
I’m not a professional (yet), but let me tell you, I’ve gone through the same things you are. As a teenager, I’ve struggled with mental issues (including psychotic symptoms), I’ve been hospitalised twice, I’ve hurt the people around me, I’ve lost all my friends over night because of screenshots of me saying horrible things. All I can tell you is that things can get better if you try to make them better. Your life isn’t over because of one dark period. Find someone who can help, a mental health professional. If you can’t, then you have to try your damn hardest until you can. The worst thing you can do is give up, and running away from your life as you know it is basically just that.
Doing such an act will only prove them right about you. Do yourself a favor, stay off social media especially if you’re searching for self validation. People on the internet aren’t usually the same people who they are IRL. You’ve gotta find inner peace and love yourself. Only then will you start to find a healthy way of life.
Now this is a morbid question. I recommend perhaps getting an appointment.
Yes. This is an incredibly massive betrayal of trust. Forcing people to grieve you for no reason is fucking heartless.
Just go check into the psych ward and then follow up with all your medications and therapy when you get out. The best apology is changed behavior.
Don’t allude to suicide, just say your taking a sabbatical and working on yourself, people will respect that and give you a chance, when you come back own up to your mistakes and try to be better
Yes, this is a terrible thing to do to people. It could even be illegal, particularly if a search ensues and you knowingly waste police resources looking for you and/or you forge anything in the process of disappearing.
There is no such thing as vanishing and returning to your problems being gone. you can vanish, and you could theoretically work on yourself while you’re gone, but you’d have a whole lot of new problems when you got back (like legal problems, people being pissed at you, possibly being legally declared dead and having to go through the courts to prove you’re alive, people not wanting to reconnect to you…)
You are fantasizing about a big dramatic fix-all which is not particularly uncommon. It’s fine to have thoughts like that. Just as long as you firmly understand that they are not realistic. They never are. Big dramatic catch-all fixes do not happen in real life. It’s like girls dreaming of a prince to sweep them away to a whole new life in a castle. It’s nice. But it’s never going to happen. Google “avoidance behaviors”. That’s where you’re at. You need to face your problems. Best of luck.