I have been in a serious relationship since 2020 and have loved her to the core, but she dumped in 20024 end as her mum didn’t approve of us, she never looked back , but called me a couple of times as she wants me to be her emotional support as no one understands or knows her as much as i know about her. i tried but she kept saying about the dates she is going my heart broke i told her how she ruined my life with making decisions based on her mood swings and we broke up, i had to get on to a matrimony website and talked to someone she really like me, i wasn’t into her as i am very emotionally attached person and my heart broke after my ex gf left me so cruely. Anyway my whole life changed, my visa expired, no job, savings all are finished. i just couldn’t cope. I explained this to the girl i was talking through matrimony website and she insisted that i am gonna move on later and she didn’t want to miss a good person and she is happy to marry me, well now we are set to marry and i clearly told her, i just want my old life back so i need the visa and don’t think i can give you any love as i am too broken. With the pressure from parents of getting married n felt like my life opportunities have been taken and this is the only way i agreed. But i feel so burdened that i am doing wrong and marrying someone for a better opportunity in my life. I am too broken to love her nor i was attracted to her much. did i do wrong ? i feel like shit and guilty and just feel ashamed of myself.