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I know im going to end my life in a few hours and i just want to let this all out before i go. If you guys ever plan on becoming parents, be kind to your children. BELIEVE them. HELP them. Dont ruin their lives just for your own selfish gain. My mom is a horrible person. I am sick of being treated like an outsider by my own mom. My bio dad has died a few years before and she was the only one i have left. And now she and my twisted minded step father are planning to kick me out. Hes the worst..he always got away with sexually abusing me because my mom always sides with him and constantly blames me that i shouldn’t have been “seducing him” when im not. He started doing that when i was 7 YEARS OLD. How can you believe him over me mom?..i wish i had a normal fucking life and i wish i still have my dad and i wish i have somewhere to go. my mom ruined my life every chance she gets. I lost all of my friends because of her. Im in debt because of her using my identity. why does she hates me..why. i just wanted my mom. i just want someone who could make me feel like they love me..i just want another chance in life but i have no where else to go. Please anyone. Dont mistreat your love ones. Help people who need it. dont hesitate to. be kind and never let anyone experience what i had to go through. I wish it was a better life for me but this is all there is to it now. Goodbye everyone.
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Dont do this. Life always gets sunnier when you dont expect it.
please don’t do it.
Many of us would welcome you in to our families. Many of us have none. It can’t replace what your missing or want.. it can give you a different path where you don’t question your self worth. You’re worthy to be with usđ«
i wish things get better for you.. i know its hard but please dont do that..
‘ll always post a comment from a random redditor that opened my mind:
“If you have nothing to lose, that means life and death are basically equivalently meaningless. Might as well stick around until you die naturally, then, and have fun, see what you can get up to…. you know, say “fuck it” and wander around. You’ll die eventually anyway. And who knows, by then you might have something to lose in the face of death.”
I’m sorry for your situation, for real. But stay safe and dont do stupid things
As a mum, my heart hurts for you. If you were my child, I would do anything to protect you. So yes, you deserved to be loved and cherished. You havenât done anything wrong, the so-called grown ups around you are terrible.
I know perhaps everything seems bleak right now, but I know from experience, things will change, they might get better. Nothing is permanent in life. I hope you take small steps for your own sake. Love the child that you were and still are. Give yourself unconditional love, patience and lots of chances. Sometimes we have to be our own parents, as strange as it sounds.
Make the use of online resources for this. Do one small thing that brings you joy, every day: like going for a walk, listening to birds, try & meditate even if for a few minutes. Listen to foot tapping music, dance along, no matter how awkward. Sing loudly in your carâŠ
I hope to see you around. Sending much motherly love.
Life can be an absolute hell hole where you don’t think you’ll ever get better but then you do. You will get better. It will take some time and it will be frustrating a lot of the time but then you feel content and proud of yourself for getting better. Give yourself the chance for a better future, give yourself the chance to be happier. Don’t let other people ruin your life.
Also you’re absolutely allowed to cut your mum and her shitty partner out of your life and never talk to them again. They don’t deserve you.
Taking your own life will not prove anything to your awful mother, nor will it make you feel better. I know it doesn’t feel like it, but you have so many options. You are strong and you can survive and have a beautiful life. Please hold on. Please reach out. My little brother took his own life on Leap Day last year and it shattered my soul. You deserve to be here.
I have a similar story and I promise it gets better.
This world is not better without you
There are good people in this world, you just gotta find them and give them a chance
Dont close the book yet mate, cmon
It gets better. You have a purpose in this world. Pain sucks, but it can be healed. Praying for you
Praying that you choose to live â€ïž
Don’t don’t do it please. Do you have any way to reach out to those friends or other loved ones in your family? Try to stay with them before you take your life. Shit is dark but the light always finds a way to reach you.
hey don’t do it. You are important. You don’t deserve this.
I don’t know where you live… but are there any NGO’s, human rights organisations or crisis centers that can help you? just google at least that before doing something that you can’t undo.. Please, please , please do it! Give life another chance. Don’t let them win.
If you feel like you need a sign to not do this, take this comment as one. I see youâve posted on multiple subs and Iâm sorry for everything youâve gone through but you have to stay. You need to move from where you are. Do not let your birthgiver find you. I donât know how old you are but you are not old enough to have these thoughts. There is no age, really. Find something worth living for, even if it takes a while, even if you have to work a shitty job for a year and try to save some money to live on your own and do not give your new address to your birthgiver, donât post about it, donât let her find any way to get to you. I know it sounds easier said than done and I donât know what youâre going through but this is your sign. Please stay with us.
How old are you and do you have a US passport. If I were you Iâd do whatever it takes to go live in a tropical spot and be like a bar tender or something. Sleep on the beach if you have to. Start a brand new lease on life and leave your old world behind.Â
Good luck.
Please reach to a teacher, counselor, other relative, or trusted adult. Even if it is an old teacher that youâve had in the past.
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Damn i know its hard. I mean i can see that life fucked you from the start, but she is not worth it. Your life is not worth the ending just because she is like that. Everyone have some demons in their life. You just need to find a way how to fight them and this is not the answer. Find anything that might help you a little bit. That can be psyhologist, meditation, religion, hobby or anything that might help you and you only.
But first you need to find a way to get away from her for good and start your own life. I know that its easier to said than done, but just go and take action.
Everything is better than taking your life. Trust me i know because i was the one who was tinking about it for my entire childhood. The reason were bullies, but now Iam thankfull that i didnât. Just go away from your mom and create your own life because you will create new family and find new friends.
Please don’t do it.
Please donât life can be very cruel and I know it very well myself but it can also be wonderful in the right places. Please reach out for help and support, Iâm not sure where you live but there are resources to help you.
Please, life can be good, give yourself a chance to experience it x
Is there any way you can report her for identity theft? They already took so much from you man, don’t let them take your life. There are so many people you havent met yet that will love you. So many places you have yet to see. Take back what is yours. She doesn’t deserve you.
Hey stranger I donât know you but I care about you. It may seem like the worst now but I know thereâs better days ahead for you. Life truly sucks sometimes but when we get through the test, thatâs how we become the person we need to be.
Where are you located? Reach out to some of your local family services. Just know your life has worth! Donât ever feel like you are worthless. You can tell you have a caring soul by they way you want others to treat their children. Reach out to local advocate groups. You can turn your life into a positive by becoming an advocate yourself. Please also seek therapy! One day you maybe the voice of a child in those same horrible circumstances. You can make your future how you want it to be. Please seek help! We are pulling for you.
I will be your father from now on, if you accept it. I’m serious.
I come from a broken house too, but managed to escape at 17. I’m turning 23 tomorrow, and I love the life I have now.
I cannot promise these days where you just want to end it all will ever disappear. There are days during which I tell myself I wouldn’t mind if I were to have a fatal accident. But they get rarer and you learn to prove this feeling wrong.
I’m begging you, please reconsider it. I don’t know how old you are and I don’t want to know, maybe the ages I mentioned seem too far to you. But what I can promise you is that one day you’ll see how much progress you’ve made and you’ll be proud of yourself for never giving up.
As someone who survived SA as well, I am incredibly sorry for what happened to you. I believe you and always will. You never deserved that and never will.
What your mother did was identity theft. I don’t know where you’re from, but I can’t think of any place where this isn’t a serious crime. By reporting her, not only do you clear your name from any debt but CPS can take you under its wing. I have never been through the system myself but I know from former classmates how hard this is, but from the experiences they shared with me it is nothing compared to the situation they escaped.
One last thing: if you ever need to talk, I’m here. I can’t promise I will ever reply instantly, but I will always answer. But please don’t do hurt yourself in any way.
I’m sorry to hear that. May I know how old are you? Is it possible to get a job, move out and stay away from them forever? đđđ
Are you 18 yet? If not then look forward to making a life for yourself without people that hurt you and take advantage of you. It will get better. All these things that are bothering you wont last forever but suicide will. Just be strong and hang in there!
My husband made this choice. He left me and our 5 year old daughter behind. She is now twenty three years old and still lives with this pain. Please dont do this. You can get through this, and this is a permanent solution to temporary life issues.
Report them to the police, don’t let them win.
None of what you’re feeling is your fault. All the positive notes from this community must prove to you that there is goodness out there, and it will find you. Please get away from that madness and heal. You deserve a good life.
My mother was the same exact way. It does get better when you can separate yourself. Start making plans and make that your focus. This isn’t a solution. I’ve felt the same and worse bc I wanted to take out my son as well. These thoughts are sooooo dark and I’ve never told a soul. Your brain is a liar. You do deserve better. We didn’t ask to be born and it’s so selfish and unfair to be brought here against your will only to abused. I wish you well. Please believe me. You’ll make her the victim. Don’t give her the satisfaction.
Hey, OP
My dad died when I was a teen, and my mom and stepdad abused me to the point DCFS was a regular at our home and we were removed one time for a year. They kicked me out when I was 21 for being âlazyâ (on disability) and I ended up moving in with my bf. After moving out, my mom started doing identity theft things, opening cards and accounts in my name, and went so far as to do things like cancel my dogâs prescriptions.
I just had my legal name change so she canât keep doing identity theft, my bf (now fiance) and I are getting married in 3mo, and I havenât talked to my parents in almost four years. I hear theyâre old, sickly, and hate each other just as much as they did when I was around.
I wasnât the problem, and neither are you. Sometimes itâs so hard to imagine that things will get better, but they do. I didnât believe it either and just kept living cause I didnât want to hurt my fiance, but now we have a good life.
It gets better, OP. I know itâs the cliche thing everyone says, but it does. Feel free to message me if you need a sympathetic earâ€ïž
Donât, make up a reason to stick around and do it your wayâŠ
Life can be magical, give it some time to get away from the toxicity
Your life will get better. Talk to someone. Anyone in your life. Consequences will come, you need to be your own advocate, but ending your life isn’t worth it. You only get one, and you deserve to fight for your happiness. I don’t want you to go.
I know it hurts, physically even if thereâs no visible wound. I know it hurts when they say something like theyâre shoving salt into your open chest and the bottom of your stomach gets heavy and burns. I know the pain of silently sobbing trying not to take up space and praying to anything that someone would help.
I know that it can feel hopeless, helpless, and thereâs no end. But that doesnât need to be your whole story, you have so much ahead of you. Call the police, call a hotline, call a friend, call the hospital, message anyone in the comments and know that we genuinely care about your life and wellbeing.
These strangers? These random people care about YOU enough to write these messages. People from all over the world are here telling you they care for you and while guilt is not what I want you to feel, itâs not fear.
I use my guilt to get me out of bed in the morning. I use my spite to find motivation. I use my depression to slow down and stay in the moment. I use my anxiety to clean and be creative but that took extreme effort.
Donât be afraid to show yourself love, itâll feel stupid, silly, and childish but please, try to hug yourself or rub your arms for comfort and stay present.
It can get better, you can push past the environment that created you and grow into who YOU want to be. Give yourself this gift and know that we are all here for you.
You are a beautiful soul that deserves to live.
My condolences, to your loved ones and you as well. I understand your decision, even though I disagree. I suggest something for you, before you do anything. Write down all the people you love, on paper. All the things you loved, the joys you’ve experienced. That’s it! I feel like it’d be a good writing exercise.
I disagree in taking this action, things will change.
For the people worried I’m condoning this act, I’m not. OP said a statement, they are firm on their choices and I’m respecting that. No one knows what horrors they have gone through that made them think this way, so I prefer not to act like I do.
I recognise, acknowledge, you OP.
Please don’t give up on yourself, you deserve so much more than what you have received from life.
There is real help out there but you’ll have to find it.
You are much stronger than what you feel right now.
As you see on this thread, many people believe you are worth it!
Choose life!
i know you feel stuck and I know the doom of being homeless is crushing you but DONâT let her win. Donât let him win. Your bio dad wouldnt want you to let her win. Keep pushing, even if it means sleeping in a homeless shelter, turning them in for drugs, etc. donât let her win. You are better than that. If you succeed then you are giving her the satisfaction of taking EVERYTHING from you. You still have your life and your dignity. Donât give it to her. Reach out if you need to talk OP.đ
If thereâs any chance you read this, you deserve all the love, happiness, and safety in the world. I know itâs probably been said a lot on this post but things WILL get better. You have so much life to live and you can escape the broken house you are in now to experience it. Nothing is permanent, you CAN and WILL get out of this situation. Please stay just one more day, I hope you can see just how great life truly can be when you stick around to see it. I PROMISE itâs worth it. Sending so much love to you đ«¶
You need professional help, not to end it all. You have been through horrible things that no one should have to experience, but if you do this, those monsters win. You know how you win? By living, working through your trauma and kicking ass every day of your life because you beat that trauma, instead of letting it beat you. Don’t let them win
You don’t mention your A/S/L, all of which kind off matter. Advice given to a girl in the UK won’t really help a bloke in the US….. BUT….
You think she’ll miss you if you top yourself? Feel regret perhaps? Kind of a ‘that’ll show her’?
How about you just say fck it, grab your stuff and go crash on any friends sofa that will take you. Go find any shtty job with sh*tty pay and get back in touch with whatever services said they’d help. There’s only one chance at this life and literally anything can happen tomorrow, not just for you but for anyone – you might get hit by a bus….. Mum and stepdad might get hit by a bus….. Aliens invade and everyone is fighting for their lives. You get the gist?
Try a church, see if they can help (obvs. not a Catholic church), youth groups etc.
Make the move, see what tomorrow brings x
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You are not a throwaway person, why use a throwaway account? I really hope you reach out to the people you are hiding from.
Sometimes we get shitty fucking parents. I had a shitty dad and emotionally absent mother. Donât hurt yourself because of the crimes of others. You have value. You are and will be loved. Make yourself so great that they are a distant memory. Get well, get a therapist(in the future if you canât now). Work on yourself and become strong. You can do this. Also screw any gaslighting chumps that tell you otherwise!
Can you sleep on it please.
please rethink. there are so many shelters you can stay at if you are seeking refuge. there are so many good people in the life waiting to meet you, this world is not better without you
If youâre still in school, speak with a guidance counselor. Tell them everything. The crimes they are committing will easily put both of them in jail. Youâll be free. And theyâll do most of the first steps to get the process going for you. Resources to help you. Donât let those vile people take absolutely everything from you.
Simple solution and your step dad give it to you, move out.
Go no NC on your mother. There are sources out there for people that need a place to stay. Search around. Do not end yourself
Also another recommendation is join the military. Find a recruiter and see if they can help you enlist
Please don’t, things don’t feel the same forever, things change in life and you are denying yourself the opportunity to heal even if that feels like an impossibility at the minute, it’s not. Remember feelings are very strong but they are separate from truth and we can’t rely on them. Please don’t!
Continue to live out of spite. Think about it. Step dad abuses you and mom sides sides with him. Do whatever you can and to be on your own and live better out of spite. Do it to piss them off. Either way you want to leave your family live a better life out of spite
Focusing and dwelling on the problem and asking âwhy meâ is what will get you myself killed. But when you ask HOW you can change⊠thatâs how people recover. You canât fix anyone but yourself. And your next action. Pain is inevitable, we are all human and we all experience pain. You can look at it as an opportunity for growth and then you will be proud of yourself once youâve gotten over that hump. I was sold into child traffic slavery at a very young age. I tried killing myself many times. But now I over came all the crap in my past. Today we can chose to keep moving forward.
Hey! Create your own family/support system. Id gladly be your “sister”. đ«¶đœ
There is no other way but to move forward.
Choices are endless, you can runaway, find shelter, anything but donât stay in this environment.
You deserve to be loved and be around loved ones.
Outlive them, donât let them win over you.
Keep moving forward.
Donât end your life. Start a new one. At this point, what do you have to lose? You got this, dude! đȘđŒ
Do not use permanent solutions for temporary problems.
This breaks my heart, and I hope I’m not too late, but please don’t do this. You matter! It may be hard right now but sunshine always comes after the rain….please don’t do this…đđ„ș
We can absolutely be friends as well! I’m in need of some good humans in my life.
Please don’t do this. I get this isn’t the most ideal situation but it’s temporary. One day you will be free from them and when you are on your own you can make sure own decisions. You could save others who go through something similar and give them a reason not to do what you are thinking now. Please don’t do this. You could be the difference in someone’s life. Don’t let people who are unworthy of you be the reason it ends.
Get on a bus. Go far away. Get social services when you get there. Never talk or think about your mom again. There. Youâre dead but physically still alive.
Firstly, do what everyone else is saying first… but…
If your mind is made up that you want to end your life, try doing something spontaneous before you go.
The closer I get to being suicidal, the more I think about what I’d do to enjoy life before I no longer can again.
If I was set on ending it all, I’d use my credit card to purchase a flight somewhere far away and new. I’d live there as long as I can, try to enjoy it, and have no regard for the credit card company or visa laws. You’ve got nothing left to lose, after all. Meet people, do things, see things… And once you’ve burnt out what you had, you’ll be right back to where you started anyway, but at least you had one hell of a time before the end.