f19
there’s a difference between taking care of yourself, or literally putting all your time and self value in your looks. i’ve always been told i look pretty, never had a problem w guys or friends, but im insanely fucking insecure and that’s the truth i’ll never admit. i’m also very deprived in terms of love bc of my family but then i reject every guy who wants me even if i want them because im insecure, or even going out, thinking how people are perceiving you etc, i miss being 13 and not giving a rats ass about if my brows were symmetrical if my hair was neat , if my face was bloated. yeahhh that’s my rant i hope other ppl don’t relate but honestly. i’m so upset honestly, wish i enjoyed life beyond how i look. idk sometimes i feel so disgusting and unlovable if i get a pimple or if i haven’t shaved things like that. idk, i hope things are different when im older.