i’m a 24 year old female and my boobs are ruining my life. don’t get me wrong, i hate my whole body more than anything that exists in the world, i just don’t understand why i can’t have pretty, normal boobs if i can’t have anything else. i am too “muscular” but not cut up i just look big as fuck, man shoulders, 5’6 and 180 rn and have been described as “stocky” even when i was in high school and was at my smallest of 140. i hate my stomach and my arms and pretty much everything. i’m 24 now and i have hated myself since i was a 10 year old little girl.
growing up i thought it would get better as i went through puberty. i developed an eating disorder at 15 and am in “recovery” now, which basically means my behaviors are at bay but my mind still fucking tortures me to no end.
all that being said, if i have to be a fat ugly loser with all these horrible qualities i could you know, at least have one thing that’s normal… like my tits. they’ve always been ugly, even when i was thin and had like A cups. they were always gross looking with areolas that were bigger than my tits themselves but now that i’m older they’re like a DD or bigger who knows and they’re saggy and foul. and they’re uneven. and i’m not talking about the normal “everyone’s boobs are a little uneven” no, it’s fucking BLATANT. so now they’re BIG and ugly which is honestly 100x worse.
i just don’t understand why i can’t have one thing about my body that’s normal. i’ll never be a pretty, normal girl because i have the most disgusting looking boobs you’ve ever seen. i can’t even push them up together because they make that stupid butt looking thing and have a huge gap so i can’t even use their size to my advantage!!! great!!!!
& when people say “omg don’t look at society’s standard there’s so many types of boobs!” okay not when pretty much everyone around me that i know in my REAL LIFE has normal looking boobs.. like that’s just not fucking true.
i want surgery so bad it’s actually killing me inside, like if ill never be thin i can atleast have one thing that makes me not completely and utterly repulsive. i have no money though and am graduating with a teaching degree so i wont be able to get surgery for who fucking knows how long bc i have to save to move!!!! i love it!!!!! so fucking wonderful hating yourself since you were a child for over 14 years!!! YAY!!!!
thanks for reading if you did. i know i probably won’t get any replies bc no one tends to give a fuck but if you read it thanks for caring about my pain enough to even acknowledge it by reading it.
just got done crying for like 2 hours after having a meltdown about my graduation dress and how i have to jump through hoops with shapewear and shit for my fatass saggy boobs in a strapless, backless dress. i can’t have one night without a breakdown. anyway, thanks.
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Hey, I just want to say first of all, I ee you. I read every word of what you wrote and I could feel how much pain and exhaustion you’re carrying. You’re not alone in those feelings, even though I know it probably feels like you are. That self-hate… it runs so deep and starts so young for so many of us, and it breaks my heart that you’ve been battling this since you were ten. I don’t have a magic fix for you, but I do care. And I want you to know you’re not disgusting, you’re not repulsive, and you don’t deserve to feel like this. You’re a human being who’s been through way too much and just wants to feel okay in her skin. That’s not too much to ask. Your pain is valid. Your frustration is valid. You matter, even when it feels like no one’s listening or understands.
If you ever want someone to talk to, vent to, or just be there you’re not alone. I care. And I’m rooting for you and my DMS are always open..
I pray you find healing. I’m just a dumb neanderthal and maybe this will upset you but I have genuine good intentions; I bet there is someone in your life that thinks you’re hot shit. You just have this negative focus on yourself. A little confidence goes a long way. I pray you also find happiness in yourself. You are perfect, you are YOU, there will never be another YOU. You’re beautiful inside out. 🙏
It’s really hard to for us to love ourselves because we’re constantly told that if we can’t conform then we should sit in the back.
I do want to tell you that absolutely no one has normal boobs. They’re just hidden behind shirts, bras (padded and un-padded) and bikini tops. Don’t beat yourself up for something you can’t change and instead realize that you have normal boobs just like the rest of us
U might js be overweight and gotta lose some lbs 😭maybe working on ur chest muscles can help
As an avid “pepperoni enjoyer” I don’t think you have anything to worry about, as men like me exist all over.
But, you just gotta keep your chin up and try not to put yourself down.