It felt good being complimented by a complete stranger today.
I (35f) have been a long term relationship and feel ugly more often than not. I don’t get compliments, sex is almost non existent and I guess it’s all because of my weight. I don’t blame him. I feel like he stays with me out of obligation. I’ve always been there for him through the toughest of times and he always says that he will never leave me because I always stood by him when nobody else did. Not even his parents or twin brother.
I tell him if he ever wants to leave I won’t feel bad because I get it. There’s prettier and fitter girls than me. I 100% get it.
Over time I have lost my confidence because of gaining so much weight and because I know he’s not physically attracted to me anymore. However I have in the last 2 months or so i started taking extra care of myself. I’ve lost a few kgs, not much, but you can see a difference in my clothes fit. I started doing my eyebrows (no makeup), got a new haircut. All just to boost my confidence. I also got a promotion at work and I guess this helped with my self esteem.
He still does not give me the attention I crave. I’m still as horny as can be. So when a random guy stopped me next to my attractive baddie of a friend to tell me that he just want to tell me that I’m a cutie and that he loves chubby girls like me. He complimented my round cheeks in the weirdest but nicest way and ended it all off with saying: “what do i do now?” I panicked and loudly said that I’m married and rushed off. OMG I’m not used to attention anymore. Lol
Anyway it felt good. Really really good. I just can’t stop thinking about it. I also have no one to tell because all my friends will judge me for liking the attention.
Thank you for listening