I’ve been seeing trans escorts (25m)

Throwaway here. Just writing this to get it off my chest. I am a regular guy who’s always been attracted to women. Never had a problem getting a girlfriend and has always been a guys’s guy.

I always had a fantasy to suck a dick for the past few years but never in my life would I thought I would act on it. I consider myself a masculine guy and I have never been attracted to men or any person who’s masculine.

In the recent couple of years I discovered how good prostate play feels. Like when a girl licks my ass or uses a toy on me. One girl told me I should let a guy fuck me. I told her no.

Fast forward like 1 year and many months from that time I visited a trans escort. She was very feminine and was in sexy lingerie. She started to suck me and I noticed her dick was soft just staring at me. She asked if I wanted to suck it I said no. I grabbed it with my hand which was a total shock to me. I had never done anything like this before and never thought I would. She got so hard so fast. I wanted to suck it. But it was like once I do it there’s no going back… well I did it. I wanted to feel what it would feel like to get fucked so I told her to do it. It hurt a lot and I stopped after 30 seconds. I was expecting my manhood to fall apart and to beat myself up over it internally for life. But it was normal afterwards. I felt fine.

I started to travel and I sought out other trans escorts very far away from home. I tried it again and I just felt kinda hooked. I came back home and saw some more. Fast forward I’ve seen around 15.