If you know Vronsky from Anna Karenina, then I felt like Keira Knightley in that movie. He was everything I ever desired, and beyond that. He had the perfect balance between an analytical mind and a tendency towards artistry. He was beautiful. He was the most beautiful man I’ve EVER seen. And when I first laid my eyes on him, I just knew that I could not let him go. So I didn’t, and it lasted. And the passion and the chemistry we had in bed it was out of this world. And I highly doubt I will ever find anything that will ever come close to it. He was magnetic, electric, charismatic, and I loved him. I loved him.
From the moment I met him, I remember thinking I envy his family. I envy the people who will know him until they die. Because from the very beginning, it was obvious it wasn’t going to last. He was younger than me. And sometimes I just… I think I thought that he didn’t really know what true love is. He was mostly caught up in the idea of it. That’s what I thought.
He wasn’t from my town. He wrote me letters and in those letters he would write: I will come back, I will come back.
And now, again, I want to be just like Keira Knightley from Atonement, where I would tell him come back, come back to me. But I can’t.
I think that in some sense, I will always wait for him. He wasn’t perfect. And he wasn’t perfect for me either. But the way he moved, the way he talked, the charm, the charisma. Hauntingly beautiful.
And I know he’s like a dream for most women. I saw women around him, the way they looked at him, the way he made them feel. Because yeah, you don’t meet a man like him on a daily basis. You just don’t.
And I don’t know if I will ever wake up from that dream. Because everything felt like I was living one. And I think I will always wait for him. And sometimes, just whisper come back, come back to me.
just wanted to get this off my chest.
EDIT: Hey, I just wanted to add, since the post got more attention than I expected (and because my replies in the comments yesterday were unhinged). I wrote that post from a kind of “thought tunnel” and when I referenced those two women, I was only talking about how they felt. Especially Anna Karenina. I wasn’t referring to the actual events or decisions of those characters in the books.
The title of the post says “a man written by a woman” because that felt like the right way to describe what I wanted to say about him. But the post itself was about how I felt.
I didn’t explain what happened, didn’t want to write the whole story, and honestly, I didn’t even tell a fraction of it. I just needed to get one thought out of me. I wrote it quickly, on the fly, without thinking much about how it would be read or interpreted.
Thank you for the kind comments and for sharing your own stories.
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The impression I try and convince myself I leave on women 😭
Do any man you meet whois interested a favor and turn them down until you can get over him. Because he WAS human. Now he’s a memory. A perfect memory. He cant have flaws or disappoint you. So now no normal man will measure up. Comparison is the theif of joy and it would be unfair to any good man to have to share space in your heart with a memory.
You vs the guy she tells you not to worry about
Not to focus entirely on one part, but it always wound me up when people would say someone is “in love with the idea of them” or “in love with the idea of love”. Like why is it okay to downplay and reinterpret someone’s feelings and take authority on how they “””actually””” feel
He farts just like the rest of us. Probably smells really bad too.
Both Anna Karenina and Atonement were written by a dude though lol
im so sorry but i just cant help but laught at this
Why not tell him to come back, then? (Genuine question.) I assume there’s a reason.
I’m trying to figure out who you are or when you would have met me, but I’ve had this effect on so many women, (and a few men).
Anyway, you have my permission to love again, fly fly little starling.
Wait…I thought you said he did come back? Maybe my comprehension is lacking but I’m not really sure what happened
Give it like 2-3 years. I felt like that once and it was rose coloured lenses. theres a reason you split, that romance novel stuff is just mania, and even if it felt good, it’s very likely it was bad for your life
how I feel after getting a haircut
Life isnt a novel. That dude has flaws im sure. Love isnt static and you arent lost forever i promise.
I feel this. I’ve loved a couple of times in my life, but there is only one person who just for some reason has that immense, deep hold on me. Many years have passed, and it just doesn’t diminish at all. I have never been so emotionally broken as when we broke up.
We would try again and again and it never worked, but for some reason this desire just remains. He wasn’t perfect at all, but there was just something about him that resonated with me in a way nothing else ever has.
I’m sure I will find someone else one day and will love them greatly and deeply, but I don’t think that it will ever be like this. And that’s probably for the best.
The best I can describe it, is that it feels as if he holds a part of my soul. I know that it’s unhealthy. This kind of love mixed with obsession and desperation. It can destroy you.
Edit: to clarify, I am actively in therapy. Some feelings can’t be turned off. It is what it is. I don’t have rose coloured glasses on- he wasn’t perfect, he had many flaws. Best I can do is learn how to live with that and how to do do things differently in order to have a healthy loving relationship in the future with someone else. I do know that these feelings are unhealthy. I don’t mean to romanticise, just share.
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Sounds like you are in love with an idea more than the person
Imagine him taking a dump
I bet his name is Brett or Chad, and that he listens to Joe Rogan
Damn wish someone felt like that about me 🤣
I think you could have a successful career writing smut XD
At first I was like this is nice but by the end it felt forced and creepy AF lol
Hold on let me throw up a little
Thankfully i have -3 eyes so this wont happen to me
Honestly, you never really loved him. Because love is about loving someone for all they are. Whilst you love the idea of this guy and not who he actually is. He is human for Gods sake! Not some mythical creature that reminds you of a character from a movie. May a love like that never find me. I want to be loved for me, not because I fill out somebody’s bingo card. This shit will eat you up if you don’t start humanizing him.
Props for at least being honest that you’re going to chase mr.perfect forever
i had a somewhat similar experience. we reconnected and have been married for a few years now. i’m also a hopeless romantic.
but adulthood is fucking boring. no matter where you are or what you do, you still gotta talk about bills, jobs, income, other relationships, etc. and that’s not even touching the personal work you have to do when you’re with someone long-term (this is the fucking hardest part BY FAR).
look, your references tell me that you long for a romantic drama. it ain’t fucking like that irl. if that’s what you want, sign up for some military service. because the real world is boring. i love my husband; he’s my soulmate! but earlier we had a disagreement about bathroom remodel choices. we didn’t raise our voices, came to an understanding, and acknowledged each other’s feelings. but it’s still boring. choosing a bathtub is boring.
you can either embrace stability or pursue romantic drama. but they’re mutually exclusive.
beautifully written
You tell yourself that he’s perfect and brain really likes confirmation bias so it will give you best memories to support that story that’s how people become delusional not calling you that that’s just the recipe for delusion. He might have been good but not perfect no human is perfect you probably remember best times. Try to remember about day to day routine life with him and you’ll see more realistic story then. Also there are 8 billion people on this planet and to think that no one will ever more or less match the way he made you feel is little bit wild tbh.
He only occupies this space in your head because he’s unavailable. If you were to ever actually spend a real amount of time together all of those fantastical magic things would disappear.
This man is crack cocaine for you.
youre not alone.
Stay focused, brothers.
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Sounds about right. I knew and loved a man like that for a brief time. Now he actually IS a character in my romance novel, and I’m writing us the ending that the naive part of me dreamed and knew we could never have. And guess what: my readers are falling in love with him for the same reasons I did. It comforts me in a way to know that I’m the one giving HIM immortality, not the other way around. He will live far longer on the pages of my book than he will on earth.
Girl you are so unapologetically down bad and i am here for it lol, hope you can move on from him tho.
You write yourself like you’re a side piece. I guess you were lol
I felt like that about a guy one time.
Nobody but me liked him tho. I’m sure he’s still out there, a broken and lonely man.
Whimsical ones are impossible to have a real relationship with often. Trust me, I’m whimsical, I would know. And TWO whimsical people? We never stood a chance.
I really think he can pull himself together, but I don’t need to be a part of that process.
Kinda feel bad for your future boyfriends🤣
Ugh god I’m so happy I’m a gay dude. I would run so fast if someone wrote this about me 😂
Man AI is getting annoying
Lads it’s so joever
Sounds like you have really committed to being a weekend/side piece.
What no one dares tell you… you’re an idealist, and you will live/die by the mantras You create. Not other ppl… you. It’ll be the source of your misery and (idealized) happiness. And it should be no elses burden, right? Bc you created this romanticism. How else can it be looked?
Bro this is in real life Wattpad fanfiction lol
Typical women psychology. Want the same man other women want.
This isn’t actually love its limerance and “oneitis.” You’ll have to break up with your idealized image. Then he’ll probably show up lol.
“I met a guy straight out of a novel written by a woman”
I immediately thought “Frankenstein” 😆
Did i miss the part where you explained the problem?
if it’s too good to be true …
This is the sort of attitude that gets in the way of finding another person like this. You’ll be so in your head about the past you will fail to see the present in front of you
Let a movie be a movie…not you playing the part…let dreams and fantasy be just that…
To the men, this woman is a walking bright red flag. Such women should be avoided at all costs for the safety of your emotional & mental well being. Remain vigilant kings!
I hope to never meet someone like him and I hope to never be like you.
This gave me Griffith vibes from Berserk lol
Oh lord.
A guy straight out of a novel written by a women who wants to believe she wants to be in matinees always just missing trains leaving in plumes of bellicose smoke
I’ve been told by two partners/girlfriends or whatever they were that I was “perfect”, but they ended up breaking with me. One was older than me and told me that as “the perfect lover I was” and as “great of a person I was” it was just a summer love that couldn’t be. It took me almost two years to get over that conversation in which she broke up with me. Years later I reconnected with someone I knew from high school and had the best relationship I ever experienced in my life: best intimacy, best chemistry, best compatibility, but she always told me that she wasn’t the woman for me. She told me that she dreamed about marrying and living with me, but insisted that she knew that I wasn’t hers and wouldn’t ever be. There isn’t a thing that hurts more than the famous “it isn’t you, it is me”. I even question if I really was that “perfect man” for those women and why they didn’t try to keep me. As much as I’d like to be someone’s “perfect lover”, I’d prefer to be the one she wants to stay with.
Can’t you get with him? You literally slept with him, ask him if he wants the relationship. Tell him all this.
Please don’t jump in front of a train
Atonement and Anna Karenina were both written and directed by men ☠️☠️💀
I don’t want to assume but did you base this off of those Pinterest/TikTok edits of the movies??