Trying to make my (30f) marriage survive through a difficult phase (financial/moral differences?)

Over a year ago, my husband lost his job and hasn’t gotten another one yet. This has lead to a lot of feelings because if he had followed my advice, we wouldn’t be in this situation. He also hasn’t been doing a whole lot to get back into a job. I’ve always dreamed of traveling with my kids but none of that has been possible due to covid, then the anticipation of the job loss, then the job loss itself. I also have always dreamed of living in a particular area and I’ve made many sacrifices to work closer to getting us there.

The past year has been really rough obviously, and he has improved in every other aspect of our relationship but now he just needs a job. I know he will eventually get one and things will get back on track but how do I survive this phase? If we didn’t have kids I’d be so done, but as a child of divorce I would hate to have my two kids experience it also.

We do couples counselling but he always says “if you need me to go ill go” which has started making it feel like he’s only going for me and that kind of feels like shit. Last time I had a session with our therapist, he told me I have to make a choice and consider the reality of if my husband never changes/gets a job.

I feel like I’m grieving a life I dreamed about that is now going to shit because of his choices. I also feel like our values are very different because of his recently behavior. I’m carrying the team and my monthly expenses would go down if he left. I’m also terrified of only seeing my kids 50% of the time.

Tldr; husband has been unemployed for over a year, leading to me feeling resentful and grieving a life I dreamed of because of his choices.